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Boy meets girl. Boy fucks up. Then girl fucks up. What a mess.
It was my first year at highschool where I fell in love with this girl. She was the definition of my dream girl (I would insert a list of qualities, but it would maxed out the character limit). However, I didn't realize what those feeling meant at the time. She made me feel special yet no one told me that's what love really felt like. At the time I was stupid, ignored these feelings, and chased after what society told me was beautiful. She showed interest in me, yet I ignored it.
Then junior prom came. I realize what I had been lookngi for was her (and I felt stupid). I began to talk to her more often and she even showed interest and the future seemed bright. Then a fucking truck came and rammed me. That was a metaphor for someone asked her out first and she said yes. Though still hopeful, I monitored their progress. I continued to talked to her and tried to asked her out. She turned me down. The hurtful part was that she used the things I love her the most against me and I could never pull the trigger on that. I was deeply hurt. I notice they dated a lot after that and I just wished the best for her.
At the start of senior year, the guy seemed extremely upset and started giving me the dirty look ever since. Then she started showing insterest in me again so I took the chance. I started talking to her again. However I had little time. There was a time where I dropped of the radar because I was too busy. Then she went out to lunch with him couple of times. I was deeply hurt AGAIN. After I got over her, she began to flirt with me again and the guy keeps staring. I ignored her first as I was confused.
WHAT TO DO?
I don't believe in fate, but I feel like our timing is the worse. But I guess that's one thing we have in common. We only had one class together ever. Though we're on the same sport's team we go to practice diferent days.
We're both shy.
They dated for a month.