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He was my first everything ( love/lover) and he knows that. i was head over heels over him but i felt he took me for granted and tereated me like he didn't care about me in any way. ( he didn't care about my feelings, safety, life etc) he got otp with other girls in front of me, made me walk home alone at 9 at night after leaving his house ( like im immune to rapists and kidnappers) etc and made me feel used. it wasn't all bad but it seemed like the bad outweighed the good. he made me feel so low and unworthy. like i wasn't important. like i didn't even matter in his world. it always felt like if i left he probably wouldn't even notice. we seen each other today at our homecoming ( We are both freshman in college) and i guess he realized that he fucked up because he tried to flirt with me but i told him this " i dont care about you anymore, im not trying to be mean its just you dont mean anything to me anymore. you 're just like a random ni**a on the streets to me now. When i look at you i dont feel anything. " He asked did i miss him and i told him " Not really, you didn't bring anything positive in my life". Like hoenstly why would i miss something that made me feel like i wasn't unimportant, why would i miss something that made me cry why would i miss something that i felt brung me down on the inside and made me feel sad and rejected all the time? SERIOUSLY who would miss that! How could i miss that? My friends told me he left early and looked very sad nd upset, he told my freind he didn't know i hated him so much. i dont hate him i just dont care about him. its a difference right. ?