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LONG STORY SHORT: I’m in an abusive relationship his ex beats up any girl he tries to talk to we met at work. We started off as hook up. Me to get away from my abuser ( feel stuck) him I guess he felt lonely. He didn’t care at first and then we would start arguing like couples do and he’d be mean id be mean however we never stopped talking. We work together by the way. So he’d get drunk tell me he wanted me to be his id say I wanted him to be mine but when brought up sober he’d deny deny deny. So I’d deny but I secretly had feelings for him. So we went out downtown and he called me baby in front of a group of guys because they were looking at me. I finally the next day asked about why he called me that and he denied denied and then I asked him again during text and told him to chill out about being so defensive because I liked it which he replied with “ mhmmmhm” which he not replies like that when he has nothing to say but wants to say something. After this incident he starts to look scared of me acting nervous not looking me in the eye and kinda avoiding me but still trying to get my attention at the same time. So then I asked if he cared about my situation and he said “ why did u want me to care, cause I don’t” but I could tell he did. Next day he kept bringing up my abusive boyfriend and kept asking why haven’t I left yet. And what I’m waiting for. I then tell him I’d rather be with him which he turned around looked very shyly and said “ well your still with him so...” and tried to his whatever he was feeling ( he can’t express his emotions well we’ve talked about it) now he’s acting EXTREMELY ODD now and awkward and shy. Why is this?

So, I have had the hardest year in my life because i lost someone i really loved due to cancer :( . On top of that a popular guy i reported to the counselor for bullying me last year (embarressing me in front of people and hurting my feelings) turned his friends against me so much that they pick on me saying i'm ugly and making fun of me saying i look transgender. One of the guys friends also came up to me like he was going to punch me. I made a mistake telling him"it all makes sense now because you're gay " last year i told him i was sorry but i guess He is still mad because now he is spreading rumors that i'm transgender and i'm not i confronted him about it but now things got worse. Recently, i made another mistake by expressing my emotions on social media saying that this guy hasn't gotten over me saying he was gay even though i said i was sorry and meant it, now he is spreading false rumors about me, how i'm so shocked that this guy is so fake because i never thought guys were fake, and here's the bomb, i also mentioned that i had feelings for him (the guy who is doing this). His friend saw it, screen shotted it and sent it to him. Now i really want to leave the school i am very embarressed and i am so tired of them making me feel like i am worthless, and making me cry often. I never want to see them again especially him. I'm sorry this paragraph is so long i just felt like i needed to express myself thank you all for your answers.