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Right. Long story short. We dated for a year 2014/2015. He was the one who was into me, pursued me, wanted to settle down, he adored me etc.

I was in a bad place at the time and couldnt see how I was treating him. He kept warning me to treat him better, but couldn't hack it in the end and we ended on VERY bad terms. I know this sounds mad? But I had so many issues with commiting to men at that time, although he was a good guy :(.

He was angry with me for months... even after months he was still mad. And I was mad too. He'd barely speak to me and any conversation led to an arguments.

Now it's been a whole year since our split. Tonight I saw him and noticed a mark on his neck. I questioned it (I'm pretty blunt) and he was relcuctant to answer. But he admitted flat out that someone had kissed him there. I was like... ok.

He said it had been a whole year since our split, he was drunk and he was down. So that's how the kissing happened. He was very quick to say he has no intentions of sleeping with anyone, seeing anyone or getting in a relationship. Neither did he intend to kiss this girl again. He is honest with me about these things, and I do trust him.

I wasn't annoyed with this kiss? Just a little... I donno. Anyway, we then went to talk about our relationship and how he'd been flirting months back and hoped to see things working out. But we were still pretty raw, so I guess things broke down as a result again.

He was very apologetic towards me tonight, wrapped his arms around me and gave me a full body hug. All of me was touching his body. He apologised in case he'd hurt my feelings and rubbed my back gently as he did so. Hug lasted about 10-15 seconds. Then he joked about me crushing him with my hug and how he 'bruises like a peach' to that I replied 'well, that's apparent!' It was all in a joking manner really.

Help? He's a person I have a huge soft spot for :

Do guys kiss girls and not really mean it sometimes?

So normally I wouldn't post something like this, I don't really believe that I should need the validation of others to think that I am beautiful. However, I recently broke up with my boyfriend of two years and I have been feeling really down on myself. Not because I think I screwed up, (I definitely made the right decision on that one) but because being in a relationship gave me a sense of security knowing that somebody loved me and the way I looked, and now I don't have that anymore. I constantly find myself sitting in front of the mirror picking apart every little flaw that I have. I have an hourglass shape and I am pretty proportionate, but I am overweight for my height (I am 5'1 and 115 pounds). most of that weight sits on my ass and I have stretch marks all over my upper thigh stopping right before my butt. I also have stretch marks I got in middle school on my boobs but those have gone away over time (That's what happens when you go from an A to a D in a year Cx). I have super chubby cheeks and a lot of times I get mistaken for a being much younger than I actually am because of it. My nose is HUGE and I am also starting to get a double chin because of staring down at my laptop gaming all day haha. I am a natural blonde but I dye my hair dark because I have naturally dark eyebrows and everyone always comments on it. All I guess I really need are some words of encouragement. And I am honestly tired of dyeing my hair. Do you think I look better as a blonde or brunette? Thanks a ton! (And sorry I took the Blonde picture when I was 16 the last time I was blonde which is why it looks younger.)