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I knew this girl in highschool, she claimed to be my friend, but she seemed far from it. We went on one horrible date, and she treated me like garbage since. She'd ask to hang out and be super late or would cancel within an hour of the hang out.
Last year, we hung out for the first time in a few years, and I thought she would be nicer but she just was rather insulting and rude about my life choices and career, despite being further ahead in life than her.
Since then, she's texted me a few times, but not something I'd need to answer. But she texted me asking for advice this past week, and I deleted the message because it was about her car and I'm a mechanic.
Will she take a hint I'm not interested in her version of friendship and stop asking me for favors?

I know this is a depressing topic, I just need to vent right now. I feel like a fucking robot going through my shitty life. I'm unattractive, everything I do is pretty much pointless since we live on a dying planet anyway. Everything has lost it's fun. I don't care about my hobbies anymore. I'm too fucking lazy to write shitty books or do pointless activism. I'm a fucking joke in the dating world. I'm poor and I don't have my own house. Pretty much all music, movies, and video games have lost interest. The only thing I look forward to is dying so I don't have to be a part of this shitty world anymore, because I don't want to be here anymore anyway. My ideal life at this point is living alone in some shitty apartment with a job that involves as little human interaction as possible so that I could just die alone in peace, which why even exist at all? I guess the only reason I haven't done it yet is because I'm scared. People always feed me bullshit about "Everyone is important" and sanctity of life shit, but honestly I think my life doesn't really matter in the grand scheme of things. I mean, I'm a rape baby that was shit out of someone's vagina, it's not my job to be here and suffer because ungrateful shitheads would miss me. If I can't handle the way the world is, and I'd rather not exist than pretend to be happy at a shitty job around people I hate, why is it my responsibility to exist in a world where I'm not appreciated or needed? Is there anyone that feels the same? Do you think everything would be better if you never existed at all? & don't tell me the world is better because my hateful bitter ass is here to suffer in it. I don't want to be around any of you fuckers I just want to die.