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Hello! So I came across this website earlier relating to a question that I have had on my mind for a while. I am twenty years old and have never had a boyfriend. I have been asked out on dates in high school, but let down every guy because they either weren't my type or I did not feel that connection ( a wee bit of trust issues too). The closest that I have had to having a boyfriend was a couple of months ago. I met him online and he was a gentleman, but I was so nervous to even hold his hand, he assumed that I wasn't fully interested in him. He said that he liked me, although he wasn't sure if I truly knew what I wanted. He even said that he was willing to wait for me once I found out what I wanted. Shortly after a few hangouts, he ended up pursuing one of my friends, even though he was aware of the fact that she had a long-distance boyfriend. That really turned me off haha and I have been avoiding my friend like the plague. People think that I am picky and I can agree. I mean call it a self-esteem issue, but I know there isn't anything wrong with me because I have been asked out, and if I truly wanted a relationship, I would have given those other guys a chance. Guys tend to look at me, but I never truly initiate eye contact because I just feel as if I am not interested. I have disregarded any dating advice that I have heard from family and friends, because I find that they have not found themselves in stable relationships, so why should I take it from them? I would love an opinion from you all, I feel like the guy I previously saw was right about me. One of my friends even asked me if I was asexual, I might be (who knows). I love the idea of getting married and I love children, but if it doesn't happen then we will see. Do you think that being single is a choice or is it a matter of luck/being in the right place at the right time/meeting someone and taking the initiative to build a relationship? Thank you much :)