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Long story short, I met this girl in the 8th grade and she's the first and only one I ever did anything for, meaning trying to seduce her with flowers, etc.
We never went out.
She moved away at the end of freshman year of highschool, and I remember feeling torn apart, like I missed something huge in my life.

Then I found her on FB 7 years later, I talked to her for a little bit and she barely remembered who I was, but shared A LOT. Then out of nowhere she just unfriended me without a response and that was the end of that. She was single by the way.

I'm not a bad lookin' dude, I hit the gym, and she was really responsive which was new to me than the past girls I talked to.

I can't express what feelings I have for her, I have had so many chances with other girls, some of whom were way out my league, but throughout that time I never felt like it was right, even the time I was about to have sex at 17, I chickened out and have been lying about my sex life.

When I saw her it was like some spark came back into my life and believe me, I tried everything in my power to refuse these feelings. I know what kind of girl she is, my friends called her trashy and I snapped in response which is a first in my whole life especially with someone I haven't talked to in almost a decade.

I feel like not doing anything would be a huge mistake, but then again, there's a lot of evidence that tells me to move on, but for every reason that tells me that, I'm ignoring it, and I don't know why.

I feel like a creep, and it seems wrong, but so right. I have never been so irrational in my life, ever.