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I am a 25 year old 5'6" male and I never had a girlfriend. I have only had sex once in my life when I was 20 (she was 16). We both lost our virginities to each other but she never wanted a relationship with me. I was thrown in jail and have a stalking conviction on my record all because I brought her a cookie cake around 7-8 months later trying to ask her out to her prom (she was now 17 at the time).

I once tried to make a relationship happen with this one other girl, but she ended up becoming a transgender (became a dude). I can't believe I made out with her one time.

Like I said I am 25 and never had a girlfriend. I only had sex once in my life and it was back in 2015.

Not only am I short and never had a girlfriend, I also lost my career. I had to voluntarily surrender my EMT license (it was going to be revoked anyways).

I still live at home and on disability.

I also have an Autistic Spectrum Disorder and other mental health issues.

I have been hospitalized over 13 times in my lifetime, all starting from adolescence.

I have been trying to learn programming and web development for over 3 years diligently. I am still an ameatur and suck at what I do.

I cannot get ahead in life it seems in the romance or the career department.

I only want a decently attractive woman without a romantic past (meaning no previous boyfriends or romantic bonds), but I will likely remain alone because I will never find that I feel.

I am failing at life. Period.

Let me just start off by saying that my mother isn't the worst mother in the world, and she wasn't outright abusive (or at least I don't think she was), but I just think she failed as a parent, but it's not entirely her fault because she picked most of this stuff up from her mother.

She was sleeping around with a couple different men at the time I was conceived so we don't know who exactly my biological father is. This made me uncomfortable with sex even till this day.

She let me drink Coke since I was 2 followed up by more unhealthy habits which let me to struggle with obesity my entire life.

When she was mad at someone that wasn't around she would take it out on me. Usually by yelling at me when I asked what's for dinner, I still struggle to ask questions to people.

She didn't let me do boxing as a kid so I can stand up to my bullies. She said it was too dangerous.

There were a couple of times she choked me for being clumsy as a kid.

She married a drunk for my first step dad.

She never tried to understand my issues. I once tried to tell her that I was having suicidal thoughts and she just threatened to put me in a mental hospital and said "I could've just aborted you."

She put cigarettes and weed before food.

She always fought my battles for me, even till this day and I never learned to be a man.

She's very lazy and always procrastinates and is irresponsible with money which didn't set a good example.

She never really payed attention to me as a kid because she was focused on my older siblings.

She cared more about my grades than my mental health. I started experiencing symptoms of Schizophrenia and depression at 14 and my grades started slipping especially after my grandmother dies when I was 16. I was just a lettet to her and she made me feel worthless.

She basically dumped me in the failing school system's lap and expected them to turn me into a man, and the school system just put me on aderall which gave me Tourettes.

But I still love my mother