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This isn't really a question, i just need to vent and ugh sorry. When i was in middleschool i wad being bullied by my so called friends at the time (there were only 18 girls in whole of 6th grade and only 7 girls in my class) 3 of those girls in my class were popular and i was friends with them, the other girls left were mostly “nerds”. One of those nerdy girls (the nerdiest of all) started talking to me she was awkward but had the sam sense of humor as me. We quickly started hanging out but my popular self got embarrassed by her. Those popular girls started bullying me ( it turned out to be jealousy) my brother is also an alcoholic and drug addict so my 11/12 year old self was going through a lot of shit. So this nerdy friend never washed her hair and she always wore the weirdest combos of outfits. I always acted like i was wiser and everything i said to her was correct. So naturally i had watched clueless so i wanted to give her an amazing glamorous makeover... thats were i went wrong. My insecure little ass, called her a nerd and said she was to awkward, so i would try to teach her to be less awkward, i went through her closet and helped her pick cute outfits. We created this things called journey to prettiness. I was trying to help, but i feel like this will always haunt her. I made her feel like she wasn’t good enough. I have apologized many times for this she has always accepted and apologized back for some weird shit she also did. This still haunts me, i have since become a better person and my personal issues are solved. I just don’t know if i can ever forgive myself for this. What are you’re guys’s opinions. Does this forever make me a bad person?