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So my girlfriend is undeniably a tomboy. She has a rather firm and tough personality, and is really into sports... like soccer, basketball, volleyball, swimming, etc... she also just really likes walking a lot. She's also into theme parks and water parks... such as Universal, or Disney World, or SeaWorld, or Aquatica, or Discovery Cove, etc. She's also into martial arts, she's been at it for two years... and she is indeed quite cunning. She also likes video games, when she's not going out. She's better at those games than I am, though she's just a casual gamer. And when it comes to shows she likes watching, she very often likes shows/movies such as Breaking Bad, Dexter, Game of Thrones, the Godfather, Friends, The Office, etc. Nothing super sappy or that has to do with "girly" stuff. Just mostly gender-neutral shows.

She also keeps her hair short, more or less like a guy... I mean it's not that short, and looks great on her. If she was a guy it'd be long hair, and it has a lot of volume still, but for a girl it's short hair, since it doesn't even go to her chin or shoulders. Sorry to compare her to an anime character, but this childhood character is the only comparison I can think of without putting up my gf's actual picture on the internet, lol.

If you want a picture of a real girl, this is close enough, but I think the anime girl's hair is slightly closer to my gf's actual style, since my gf's hair has slightly more volume.

However, she does have a "girly" side to her. She's very understanding of others' emotions, and she waxes all her body hair off. She wears shorts a heck of a lot... which makes sense, though, since we live in Florida. But she says she absolutely hates body hair, and likes how smooth her body feels without any body hair... which is kind of hilarious to see such a tough girl worry about keeping her skin as soft as possible 😂😂😂

It feels SUPER nice, though. No complaints.

So I turned 18 fairly resonantly and never had a real relationship even though I really wanted one for SO SO LONG. I’m shy and introverted though and only have a few close friends and that’s because of social anxiety due to severe bullying back when I was younger and never fitting in with others at school. Anyway at this point I’d give absolutely anything just to have a pretty girl to wrap her in my arms, snuggle with, talk to about my day, kiss her, have an intercourse with her (if she’s comfortable with it of course) etc. People say I have so much love and empathy in my heart waiting to be passed on to others but at the present moment only people I can think of giving it to are pretty girls as they are my #1 Priority and I’d do anything I can to make a girl feel loved but if I find her and the intensity is released on only focusing on girls then yes I’ll give it to other people too. The thought of so many other people YOUNGER than me being able to go a lot farther in terms of being sexually active and stuff makes me so depressed, feel so low and want to self harm. Sometimes I think of giving myself a 3rd degree burn (please don’t judge) because I feel an urge too. Haven’t gone that far yet and yes I know I’ll need skin graphs if I do it. (Not only dating I also have a couple bad phobias too and yes I have been seeing a therapist).

Anyway bottom line is that I wanted to ask if it was normal for someone my age in my position (never having a girlfriend once and really wanting one) to be so girl crazy where all he ever thinks of is wrapping a girl in his arms, will do absolutely anything for one and gets so depressed thinking of others having it especially those who don’t deserve it. Ex. Those who just want sex.