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now here me out i was sitting here after being rejected for the leteral hundred time. I was begining to think on ways to change myself then I thought to myself if a girl likes me for who I am then she would accept me. i look at myself in the mirrior and think "i dont have a bad personality, iam not ugly, i am a little on the short side (5'6") why is it so hard to get a girl then it hit me. no matter what i do or what kind of person I am it is her choice. i am not hunting I am waiting to be selected even if I go up to a girl and ask her out. so no matter what happens in the realationship it is her choice whether she ends up hurt or divorced or abused she used the power that she had to choose her own fate. she relies on the man to make her fantasy come true. if it is glam and glitter she wants she will take it home no matter if it is wrong or right her actions and choices really tell who she is. sadly what that does tell me is that personality is not a real factor because aside from adverage looks and some college education I am never selected. even more scrier than that I realize that if I was a girl dating would not even be a questionable subject as most girls around me have already lost their virginty. I am told to hold on but in reality time just raises their expectations. I guess the one thing I do take from this is don't listen to what they say about equality and love look who they take home with them and that tells the soul of a women. weither she lets in a vampire or a celestrial, a demon or an angel. she was the only one who allowed those things to happen.