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I deleted my Snapchat because I do not want to face any scandals regarding me and my online (never-irl) female friend that I've met for almost a year.

She's living in Kansas and I'm living in California. She found out I saved 152 pictures of her, mostly edited ones on my phone, and she was "nauseous" and found it "absolutely disgusting" that I would say things such as "men are above women" and "'no/maybe' means yes," and placed the whole blame on the Bible and my stepfather. I may face serious consequences, who knows.

But even though my mother and even my father (and possibly some of his relatives) have received DMs on Instagram regarding my aggressively inappropriate, prejudiced behavior, I have yet to receive a response from any of my family.

Ihave a feeling that my mother is either going to enable the behavior that I have, giving an "autism" excuse to my friends (and ex-friends, who blocked me), or that she will text me about my behavior when her husband isn't around (her husband is no joke, man).

However, my mother (who is very religiously conservative, with a few exceptions) did remind me to keep my shirt on when communicating on Snapchat. I told her we're mostly adults in the group chat and that Barack Obama was seen shirtless, but she responded with the obvious fact that they aren't her children.

Honestly I'm going to be so over [her] and I think that this is for the better.. because what's the point of making friends with a girl that doesn't even like me back.. she's always flirting with black guys/semi-white Jewish guys that have trucks and an extremely high social life... girls these days are so materialistic and many 18-25 year old girls are nonvirgins... I just can't handle this life anymore. If a beautiful girl cannot accept a white tradhusband then she doesn't deserve to live in America... she can leave our land. I got blocked by a lot of friends.

This guy who has a girlfriend exposed my camera roll that I masturbated to, of different girls.

So, I have been with my girlfriend for a long time. About 5 1/2 years.

Early in the relationship (around the 3 month mark) she lied to me about her ex texting her. It happened while I think I was looking at her phone whike she wrote a note. I didn't see what it said. She lied and said it was her female roommate that texted her (Completely different names). I gave her about a dozen chances to tell the truth. Finally I told her I already knew and saw. She admitted she got a text from him, but it that she isn't doing anything, he just tries to text her sometimes, and since I had a friend/family member dying of Cancer at the time (R. I. P. Joe Basara), she didn't want me to worry and overthink.

There have been a few more small lies, omissions of truth, and more over the years, but I legitimately believe she loves me. We have been with each other through some of our more difficult times thus far, and she's a very emotionally feeling person. She loves animals, she can't handle people or animals being hurt without bursting into tears, etc.

But I still don't trust her completely. I haven't trusted her since that day when she proved she could lie right to my face. We have been long distance for about 3 years (Her family moved and we weren't equipped to move in together at the time), so I wouldn't even know if anything was going on.

She also lied about the state of her coworker's marriage. She claims she didn't know, but they were in a really bad place and about to divorce. She showed me her texts to make me feel better, and while he definitely talked about the marriage being in a bad spot, there didn't seem to be signs of anything more than him mentioning it and just being an acquaintance. Messages likely weren't deleted.

How can I trust her again? Should I?