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Who I am
I'm 24. 6'3, 190lbs. Slightly overweight (15% bodyfat) but still decently athletic. Short blond hair. Blue eyes. Thick eyebrows. Plump lips. High cheek bones. Big angular jaw.

A girl in gym pants and me were in line waiting together. I naturally checked out her butt cus it was really developed. All I thought was she was way out of my league. She looked back at me and I feel like she judged me quite harshly to be a beta male. I made sure to stop looking and forget about it asap. Obviously I didn't really forget about it. She was hot.

I feel like it’s just a waste of time. It’s so hard to find a connection and I can’t be bothered anymore. To the point I forget. I’m busy focusing on my work these days.

Being single makes me feel at peace, a girl would just add stress, worry and problems to my life.

I’ve never met a girl with good qualities I want. Furthermore, there’s just white girls in my area and you can’t expect many of them to be loyal to anyone. Even if you’re such an awesome guy.

I've known this girl online for over 6 years, she's older than me and we use to date off and on. But we have mainly just been friends because she kept breaking up and wanting to get back together online.

Whenever she would break up with someone she would message me in a flirtatious way. A little over a year ago I had a close family member to pass while we were in a relationship and she broke up with me while I was dealing with that situation not making matters any good.

She also would tell me about guys she's dated or is dating and she would always message me about how she can't find a guy to date while breaking up with someone every other week.

She would as me for photos which I sent but she never sent me a photo of herself only once years ago, but whenever she would ask me I'd ask her if she would send me one of her since I did and she said she would but never did. She even gave me her phone number once and different people answered the phone as she said she lived with her parents. So I'm guessing it was her family picking up the house phone and not her actual number.

She recently gave me another number but always asked why I didn't call her and I told her I didn't feel comfortable giving out my number but gave her an email alias to contact me through which she never did.

She sent me a screenshot of something on her phone but I'm guessing didn't realize her messages showed with someone sending the message "Hey b***e (guys name)" So I researched her name and location and many people live there and showed someone in their 50s by her name lived at the address, was able to locate by phone number, and also a relative named (with the guys name) lived across the country.

So as of today she deactivated her account online not informing me, whenever I would make a new account or take a break I would tell her since we were friends.