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So one time in the mall me and my friends go to this store. It was empty. It was the 3 of us and this young girl who works there like 2 years older than me who was there. We weren't doing anything obnoxious or anything rude. But my friends were talking a lot while I was quiet. The girl stares at me and held it. She didn't smile. Just a deep stare into my eyes. I looked back at her and we held eye contact for like 10 secs. I didn't smile either because I didn't want to be a creep. So I looked away and ignored. So we left. The 3 of us walked around the mall and older women stared at me. I checked to see if its just my brain creating this fake reality where everyone is staring. But it wasn't fake. I looked back at them and the stare keeps going on. So I was a bit suspicious and asked my friends wtf is wrong with me. They were confused and were like wtf are you talking about. You look fine they said. So we kept walking around and a girl who was talking to her friend walked past us and locked eyes with me and held it. She moved her head to look at me as I walked by. I made eye contact to confirm and she was staring. Another time in the gym. I'm talking to the guy in the front about memberships and stuff. And this girl held a stare at me. I see her in my peripheral vision but I ignored her. Another time as I was leaving the gym I was laughing at a joke my friend made and I looked over at him only to see a another girl who works in the gym staring at me. Once again no smile. So I'm really confused. Do they like me? I feel so uncomfortable as I haven't really developed the ability to stare back to show my dominance. I always lose at these eye games girls give me 😳😪

Often times when I'm sitting on my porch sipping on a mojito I get lost in my thoughts about how improbable the existence is, about how there being nothing would make just as much sense as there being something.
The more I think and the more questions I find for which I can't even begin to form answers the more everything around me starts to feel surreal, even the most basic things start to not making sense and you find yourself feeling like that time when you wake up delirious from a fever when even your own hands appear freaky and out of place.

At that point you kind of slap yourself to get back into reality to watch your favorite tv show or youtube in order to take your mind off things.

Do you experience a similar state of "mindfucking" yourself?
Feeling a little freaked out, not necessarily because your thoughts are evil but because you feel like you have just gave your brain an error?