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These are the things I observe to him

1. He ignores me after getting what he wants
2. He is always in need and that I am responsible to clean all his mess. But he doesn’t really care about mine.
3. It’s always about him.
4. He said he never love any girl and I wonder if he ever love me.
5. He curse me a lot of bad name calling if he doesn’t get what he wants
6. He has many criminal charges like rape and scamming, but he doesn’t admit his mistakes and only to blame the government for treating him bad.
7. He is afraid to go church and don’t really care about religious things
8. He often lie to me about things
9. My family and friends think that he was just using me and manipulating me.
10. He always blame me to his misfortunes
11. He beaten me up before and destroyed my phone
12. He promise to change but he is still the same
13. He is undeniably charming at first and will make you fall fast
14. He always wants to be served but he never did anything to serve you back
15. He expects you to give him compliments like gifts but he never give anything gift to you like even a flower.
16. He used different girls for sex and later on asking them for money or favors
17. He make me bad to other people even if it is his own mistakes.

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I’ve ghosted the man that I love. Because I was scared of him falling for me. I ran away from it. And I wasn’t ready. He wanted to settle. He wanted to get married. He wanted to have a baby. And I was not ready for it all. I was afraid to fall for him. I tried everything to get him to not like me and now he don’t. Over the year he still kept in contact, he checked on me and I started to like him even more even when I tried to avoid him. I want him. I love him always have and alway will. I never stop I just need time to think on what to do and if I did or not. He said he like me but it is not like it was before and he constantly brings up what I did to him. I’m doing all I can to prove that I made a mistake and I loved him all along. What should I do? How to get him to fall for me again? I know I should have never ghosted him and it hurts me to know that I went about it that way, sometimes I feel like that my karma is hitting me because it breaks my heart to know he don’t care and there might be a possibility that he will never want me ever again. Please only mature answers... I don’t want to give up on him but it hurts me because I know I am the one that broke him heart and made him into the broken man that he is right now. But I just want to put back the pieces and I told him I will never leave him ever again.