Search Results: fear of failure

I am in a relationship with a married woman and she is 4 years younger than me and she was having one kid and he is Now 8 years. At some point she stuck into other relation and got divorced but while this divorced i fetch her from that mean person who was using her. While this divorced we were staying in live-in relationship. Now she is still fighting for her kid which is hardly not possible. In a second openion advocate suggest to leave the kid and leave happy life. His x husband is got married again and leaving happy. While we were in relation she was forcing me to get married. I was not wanted to get her and my self in problem so suggested her to wait till she get divorced. Now after divorced she is refusing to marry as I know her past and she fill i can trouble her. Now the thing is as I know her i can't stay without her and even she cannot stay without me but due to may parents involment she wants me to leave.. At some point she are much wrong. I have given her what she has asked for and now this behavior jut because I said no when she asked for. I never said NO. I only said let's wait. I need help to make a choice. What should I do. It hard for me to leave her. We are in relation from last 9 years and in live in from last 5 years. She has left me and staying somewhere from last 2 Months and not telling me anything. And I am afraid that ahe should not make same mistake as she did before. I am still at same place and waiting for her. We are already talking with each other after separation. I am also trying to involve my self in some other relation by searching patner on dating site. But after sometime I am not able to that as well and u installing the apps as fear of failure.