Questions: Girl's Behavior

I got in my first relationship weeks after I turned 18 and it was out of pity. I didn't really love or even felt sexual attraction to my first girlfriend.

she liked me however and at the time she recently got out of a very life threatening toxic relationship with an asshole who used to abuse her and assaulted her with every random household object he got his hands on. one night her family rescue her from his claws but unfortunately she got emotionally involved and when back to him days later.

he even returned with her that night she when back to him with a machete in his hands threatening her family that he was going to "chop her into piece" if they try to take her away from him again. lucky for her after that night the whole neighbor sided with her family and were able to rescue her from him and she never got emotionally evolved again. days later she found me and fell in love with me.

- therefore my good Gemini side felt bad for her and was telling me to get with her and show her what good man was.

- however my bad Gemini side in the other hand was tired of being an 18 year old incel so it was telling me "this is you best opportunity, why let it go to waste?"

till then it was the pity that I had for her that made me fall in love with her, but I never told her this and she probably knew either way. but I wonder if this would actually hurt a woman's ego, knowing that the man she's with is with her out of pity and not desire