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I've never been charged but I have committed 5 class B misdemeanor offenses from late 2018- late 2019. All of which were the same offense, soiliciting an escort.

It was only sex though, I didn't threaten any of them or anything, so the only offense I could've been charged with was the class B misdemeanor for solicitation. Police found out about it I'm sure by looking through the phone records for one of the escorts that went missing months later. This was the third time I'd done it at that point.

I assured them that I had nothing to do with her disappearance and told them I'd never do it again. I meant it but I allowed my apathy to rule me again and did it two more times. After that, my mind finally caught up with my actions and how wrong what I was doing is.

Since then, I've grown a lot as a person and become much more aware of my mistakes.
If I could go back, I wouldn't have done what I did at all but I can't go back and can only move forward. Luckily the escort was found alive but scared not too long after and I have not received any further contact from police.

At the time I didn't like police as much because well, I was breaking the law and was afraid they'd investigate me over something that to me at the time, was no big deal. I realize now that soliciting an escort is immoral and just because I was paying them and they'd hug me doesn't mean they enjoyed anything that happened in the hotel room.

On the bright side, I tracked some social media pages down and the girls I saw are doing much better and pursuing careers that hopefully will be rewarding and joyful. I didn't contact them though as they probably don't want to hear from me. The statute of limitations has expired and law enforcement has decided not to charge me. I've become very fond of them as they gave me a second chance that I didn't deserve. Have you been charged before?

This may not make any sense. But I’m in a relationship I know I shouldn’t be in right now. Im really emotionally tied to this woman named Eve though I know we’re not the right match. I feel like breaking up with this woman is right thing to do. But I go crazy at the thought of Eve with another guy. Does this mean I’m crazy? I dunno how I’m going to handle this when the day comes. Eve is not 100% bad, and there’s lots of good things she does. But it’s a toxic relationship.

Here are the reasons can’t stay with her:

1.
I’m not 100% sure she’s faithful:

Eve has too many male friends. She’s thirsty for attention from other guys and pretends she’s not. Eve also has a history of sleeping around, having one night stands, and has been pregnant and aborted by 2 different men. Now she’s always fronting and barely wants sex with me.

2.
She’s very judgmental and ignorant:

She makes fun of people who are poor, living cheap looking apartment’s and houses. Even laughs at people who wear cheap clothes from Walmart. She always points out bad character traits I’m me and my family. But doesn’t like it when I do the same back to her.

3.
She likes giving attitude:

She always has issues with somebody. For example, she’s always yelling and cursing at people on the road when she drives. She used yell at me frequently until I started yelling back her. She still does it once in awhile, but not as often.

Giving all I said. I still can’t let her go and I don’t know why!