Not asking for a lecture on how bad dating an ex is, I know that already.
The thing is I've been in a relationship with a woman that pretty much "stole me" from my previous girl. It was my decision, though.
Girl A, which came first, is pretty and petite. She's got a heart of gold and is just so fun and likeable.
Girl B attracted me because she is more mature but more "high maintenance" (I hate that expression but it helps a lot). She's tall and pretty too.
So I left for girl B because my relationship with girl A was stuck. She was going nowhere. My leaving prompted her to get a job and start college, she got off her arse.
Now I wish I was with A again and I know she wishes too, but I don't find her sexually attractive, even though I know she is objectively very pretty and has a great body and what not. I just don't feel turned on by her.
So I want to end my relationship with girl B now because she is just downright mean to me but she OTOH turns me on so much. I just love having sex with her. We broke up a year ago and after 3 months, we got back together. We went straight back into having sex and it was wonderful.
Why can't I find my previous girlfriend attractive? I was with her 2 years and I've been 2 years with B now. Every moment I spent with girl A was precious, not so much with B.
Has this happened to you? I am pretty worried that maybe none of them are the right girl for me to settle.
I have this theory that breaking up with A was traumatic for both of us. It was a shitty move from me but then again she was constantly asking me to date other people and have fun so that I could sow my wild oats now and not later. I felt so guilty and so wrong about the whole situation that I'm sure it led me to lose sexual interest in her. Like somehow it's wrong.