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So these things happened all over the course of a few months. My ex boyfriend (we'll call him E) has a friend, well call him X. They haven't been friends for very long, but I want to say I'm not trying to DO anything with X.
One of the first times we hung out as a group X hugged me and asked me what perfume I was wearing, and said he'd buy it for a girl he'd potentially like. he's told me I look cute more than once. Every time he sees me he ends up standing or sitting close to me. E even pointed it out once. He hugs me everytime he sees me, but he hugs everyone. X has laid his head down on my lap a few times, when I was laying on my friends bed X would lean on my legs to prop himself up. I laid on his lap once back but it resulted in a accidental nip slip. He touches me a lot, like brushing my arm or hand, and resting on my legs, getting thing out of my hair, once I had something on my inner thigh and he brushed it off. He bought me drinks for my bday a while back, I remember that night he was tipsy and gave me a long hug. He asked for my number multiple times. X would tease me scrolling my phone to make me lose my place, or bothering me until I say the magic word. He's called me "good weird" before. Also sometimes in a group he'll end up just talking to me. E has said that he thinks X is into me because he always asks about me. E has said this exactly "if I were insecure the things he does with you would upset me". E has said once before that X treats me differently than other girls he's seen him around. X always talks about other girls he's into. And on social media he's shown me girls he likes, but they do resemble me a lot. I'm not sure if that's on purpose. X recently got a new girlfriend, I haven't met her but she lives like 2 hours away. I saw X like 2 days ago and even though he has a girlfriend now he still did all those things. Like touching/laying on me, getting things out of my hair and he randomly started taking pictures of me.

See I've made some bad choices, and yes I view myself a bit negatively about that, I was curious if I spelled out what I view as some of my worse points to do with... Well, getting myself a boyfriend. If anyone on here would be willing to put that aside or not:

So I lost my vcard at 18 not long after I started uni, I wanted to get it over and done with. The first time typically hurts but at the same time I kept getting this echo of what if I get raped I wanted my first time done on my own terms. So I basically shackled up with the first guy who shown interest in me, it was mediocre wasn't good could have been a lot worse. There was a couple of almost times where I touched a D.

I didn't have sex again until a year later, guy 2 introduced me to sado/machism and made me realise just how much I loved pleasing a guy. A few months after that just before my 20th I had sex with a guy whom my friends told me I should get with, two quite toxic friends.

A few months after that I had sex with a guy at a party, he was the first guy I did multiples with, it lasted about two weeks and I stopped it when I realised just how little he actually cared. 6 months later new years and got wasted woke up next to a guy.

2 months later guy 6, and this is when I got a bit carried away. I'm pretty sure I was depressed I was at the height of a toxic friendship and I lived hours away from home. I felt super lonely and now I wasn't having sex for pleasure but rather comfort. I love my cuddles so I figured: give sex get cuddles, I did everything I could to get comfort and thought it's better than drugs or drinking all the time. Though at that time I smoked pot and drank lots. 3 months later the guys at work offered coke and thought why not maybe it'll make this feeling go away. Guy 7 was married, yes I knew and yes it was a little forced but I could have said no and I didn't and yes I'm pretty sure he would have stopped. Then in the space of 2 months I slept with guys 7-11.