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I fell really hard for this girl. She dropped a few hints she was interested in me the first month we hung out, but I didn't really show interest back (I was being stupid). I was also caught off guard because I went to high school with this beautiful girl and we just talked a bit in class. I was surprised that as soon as we got to college she was initiating to hang out almost everyday. It also made sense though, because we were familiar with each other on a new big college campus. Anyway, she kind of stopped dropping hints a month later but we still hung out 3-5 times a week. At this point I really fell hard for her and got kind of attached. I wanted to tell her how I felt, but I'll admit I was scared. After 2 months of seeing each other 15-20 hours a week I lost contact with her for about a month because we both got very busy. Then after that month of not seeing each other we got dinner (initiated by me), caught up, and I helped her with homework until 3 am the next week. I was going to get dinner again the next day with intentions of asking her out. It was eating me up inside that I never said anything after 3 months of liking her. Well I found out she was in a relationship before texting her to get dinner that day. Now I think I have no choice but to regret not saying anything and learn the hard way. I was torn when I found out, and decided I was just going to stop thinking about her, which I was doing pretty well. After just a week of finding out she had a boyfriend I felt I was moving on pretty well. But then she text me asking to get dinner out of the blue. I accepted, and we got dinner and I helped her with her homework after. When I left I felt torn again. It's hard seeing her, and this whole thing is tearing me up. If anyone else has experienced this, is it better to just distance myself slowly? I don't think it would be a good idea telling her how I feel at this point. Would I be able to get over my feelings and stay friends, or hold my feelings and stay friends?