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My husband does not love me the way I want to be loved. He does not want to spend time with me doing things like board games or card games. He does not want to do chores together, like cooking or cleaning. Either he does it and I leave or I do it and he leaves. He just wants to be left alone to play video games with his "Fake Friends", whom don't even want to spend time with him in real life. He does not come to bed with me, we haven't had sex in many years. I ask him to have sex and he always has some excuse, like his body hurts, or he is tired or let's try tomorrow which means never. He spends a ridiculous amount of money on really dumb things that he never uses and gets mad at me for pointing it out. I try to save and invest. He really loves to smoke, and I do not. He just seems to care about himself and I try to care for him and for us. I try to get a baby sitter but he says stuff like "you can go on your stupid date night by yourself". He is always mad at me. I ask him "really, you want me to cancel?" and he doesn't answer. He is always bragging about himself and says things to me that seems like he only does things to sound like he is "better" than me. I some times wish I was not with him. I was with someone who liked to watch movies with me, enjoyed my company, tried to plan date nights with me, and so on. I tried to plan a movie date night with him and he looked annoyed and totally pissed. It just makes me sad. I am now eating a bowl of ramen to "comfort" myself.