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So there's this "friend".. I do want to have sex with him and he knows since I've told him a handfull amount of times. But with condoms or at least be on the pill... Which i am not but was planning to be.
Im from a good neighborhood but he's street grown.. Therefore he's used to easy girls only. he's 19 and im 23.. I dont do one nights and had only 2 partners before.. He slept with over 20 girls.. Just giving you guys our personality's background. Yesturday he invited me over, and when i entered his place the lights were off.. i asked why? He said "my curtains are see tru" :/.. And took me RIGHT AWAY to his bed.. Lol.. To cuddle and ground on me.. Which i love.. BUT it went down later on.. He tried to put it in and i said, for the 15th time, we need protection (i prefer condoms givong his past) and refused.. Again we spoke of that already.
Then he was fingering me and went down on me and kept fighting for the same thing, but i kept saying no (giving his past, i didn't tell him that his past was the reason.. Worried to insult him.. I just said it for pregnancy). He then turned me over and i had to put my hand over my vagina since i couldnt see anymore what he was doing and got supposedly super insulted. He said "i feel like im rapping you if you're putting your hand there" he burried his face in his pillow. i guess he felt rejected and embarassed so i spent the next 10 minutes boosting his ego because i felt bad for making him feel bad. I told him how much he turns me on and i really like him etc etc.. He decided to come back to me again but only to do the same thing. his dick was out going towards my vagina so i had to out my hand again. he then said that all of that was really weird and wack and he wanted to go to sleep. He gave a weird vibe.. He was covering his face again.. I kept explaining to him that its not him, its pregnancy that scares me.. He is a very insecured guy i think, he didn't want to show me his penis (its good size and nice, i saw for 3 seconds)

Honestly, one of my childhood dream was to marry an American boy. I like their accent, I like the cultural differences. I like exploring. I love the idea of building a relationahip with incompatiable or different ellements. This is challenging and exotic. But when i joined this website, my opinion on American boys drastically changed. Got kind of turned off by the regular American boy.
I like the regular ARMenian boy. I just wanted to see all the common personality traits and characterists of ARMenian man in my future or imaginary American husband but couldn't I got disappointed
"Be careful what you wish for." is a good quote 😂
Abstinence is important to me in a way that I will give up my dream for it. 😁 I have many reasons for abstinence. I can make 10 videos about it and explain but I will do it next year.
Maybe I am special enough that an American man would go abstinent for me? At least he should believe that I am still better than those who offer sex in dating. If no then he can go and fuck himself and other chicks 😀. I can imagine how many American pink anons will spread their hatred here.