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When I was in high school my American History teach always said "hate is taught" when we were learning about slavery, Jim Crow South and Emmit Till.

I actually have to agree with her because of what I've experienced. So here's my story:

My first step dad was a drunk with a history of drugs and was sexist and racist, I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING, no I'm not talking about the dumb SJW terms of sexism and racism, this guy was a REAL sexist and racist.
He would say things like "these (n words) should have went back to Africa when they had the chance, but they decided to stay and fuck up our shit" and "most women use men for their money and fuck (n words) behind their backs" and "all women are sluts and whores" and "most women will sleep with at least 100 (n words) before settling down with a white man who's actually worth a damn, and even then she'll have gangbangs with (n words) behind his back.
When my mom finally decided to divorce his ass, he refused to sign the documents, so my mom decided to start dating other men after a couple months of refusal. She started to date black men ironically enough. When she did he became very mentally and emotionally abusive and would call my mom things like " a dumb two-bit sperm burping
(n word) loving whore), and he would demand sex because they were still legally married since he didn't sign the documents and said it was her "duty" to have sex with him. After the divorce he took everything and left my mother and her 13 year old son (me) with nothing and we were homeless living at my sister's for a bit. He even took things my mother inherited from her own parents, including my grandmother's bed and my grandfather's tools.
Although it's been 7 years since I've talked to him and I'm a grown man now, having a shitbag like him being my "role model" during the most influential time in a child's life (age 5 - 13) I still tend to get uncomfortable around women and black people and I struggle with my sexuality.