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I knew two woman who came from toxic families and both were terrible as friends. One girl would disrespect everybody she came in contact with and than complain about how she was suicidal because she did not have any friends and another was also disrespectful, but got away with it cause she was gorgeous and filthy rich, and people did not expect a popular girl like her, to be altruistic and sweet since they were usually spoiled with unearned attention from others and were semi corrupted through it. It seems abused children become dysfunctional adults that do not know how to have healthy relationships with people.

I love my boyfriend. However, I have grown to resent him over the nearly 8 years that we have been together, as he is mentally and emotionally abusive towards me. This I am certain. (ie: not long ago, I had to stay with him while my family had covid and I am immunocompromised. I started the mandalorian finale without him and he told me to get the fuck out of his house when he knew I had nowhere to go)

I’ve tried to talk to him about needing more attention/affection, etc. and he blows me off. I feel suicidal with how worthless he makes me feel. I feel I cannot leave because not only do I not really want to because of how much is invested and I love him, but I am also afraid of what he will do. I smoke weed (was just legalized medically where I live) to help with my Addison’s disease and aspergers/anxiety/depression. He’s already threatened me before with my own bong, so I’m afraid he might try to turn me in out of spite.

I’m not getting my needs met and I am drowning. I need to feel loved again after feeling hated for so long. I am not a cheater and would never cheat. However, I’ve been told I would be justified but I am not sure. Is this true?