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I'm 18 never really had a boyfriend at all. Never had a first kiss either (not counting awkward toddler kisses)
and i feel ugly now that i think about it. I've only been called beautiful like by 4 different dudes but i have been called pretty more than 20 times so that makes me feel good. and i've only been approached IRL like by two guys they were handsome , sweet and educated though they were nothing more than a fling. If i go to a club/party i don't get hit on or approached i have noticed that i get stared at but that's it. I'd honestly say i'm pretty. I have a good body, big boobs, pretty big brown eyes etc. Yeah, maybe i'm not the most beautiful girl but i don't see why i shouldn't get attention from men. I'm really nice and funny if you get to know me since at first i'm really really shy and awkward but i can open up if you're worth it. I see girls that are less attractive than me ( no offence) get tons of compliments and attention by men i do also see girls that are more attractive get so much attention too and that makes me feel small and jealous. What should i do? Am i just not as attractive as i think i am? I'm feeling insecure as hell. Will i ever find a guy that will love me for me?

Am I so weird that I just don't have that natural inclination to close my eyes when making out? something of which most or a lot of people seem to do

I suddenly just thought about it last night after watching a movie and upon recalling the times I had locked lips with a guy, I always remember having my eyes open. Oddly enough, I find it weird for me to close my eyes because doing so feels "forced" to me. I don't stare (I think). LOL But that thing that happens in movies where you're so caught up in the moment, I just don't experience the need to close them shut. I like to see what's happening - the lust and desire on the guy's face and lips while enjoying the sensation. Makes the experience twice as good

Anyone else out there like me?

Ok there is this guy in our class who i think likes me. He is open with others but shy and insecure with me. I see this short joy in his face when he gets to touch me but when he touches other girls you can see he means it more friendshiply because he nearly always hurts them when they playfight. He has complimented me befor and while talking with girls (i was working on the other side of the room) he asked me if I needed help. He would snap me as if we where best friends but we barely talk with each other. We only really talk when I am not with my two bffs. Ones we played a game in class where we had to close our eyes and touch someones hand and say hi. When i came to him I sad hi and he sad hi+name and did not let my hand go till I let go. Then he ignores me for a while. Ones I was pretty drunk at a party I kissed him on the cheak, huged him from the front and behind squezed his cheak and brought it close to my face I even gave him a "lap dance". I was twerking with a friend and he complimented me saying i know how to do it. He did not ever try to push me away but he also didn't really try to touch me. There where other people around we where not alone. We go to the same class and the party happend on holidays I haven't seen him yet. At the starting of our new class I had a heavy sweating problem (under my armpits ) and ones he was sitting behind me and asked his friend why I was sweating when it's not eving warm, this happend twice I mean if i would not know myself I would also thing like that he was'nt mean or anything but it hurt me a little ( i never gave a respond) I was pretty insecure that time ( like 3 months) but know it's mutch better and i don't have that problem anymore now it is quite normal ( I never stank it was just wet) and such a comment has not been sad anymore.

Sorry for my bad English 😇