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as a thumb the nose at gesture?

When I first applied to a basic position I gave a very basic resume not even 1/4th my expertise cause the guy's business is the pits. This is a governed industry & any business that has government inspections yearly has a very serious problem with the staff (in short they're either useless, incompetent or a special sort uselessly incompetent).

Anyway he told me there was no openings in his other businesses and a couple weeks later guess what there is. Job postings.

I don't need the position. I've been hired on the spot three times at better businesses with far more adept staff since parting. I am something of an expert in the field.

But I am sorely tempted to put my real resume together & apply. Not necessarily thumb my nose at him but the HR department (an idiot).

When I was in highschool, I took science stream. I did well when I was primary school and ended up being in a science-focused highschool. Long story short, I did terribly bad at the 3 main science subjects which are Addmath, Chemistry and Biology in the big, last, final examination in my final senior year. I got E for those 3 subjects which was nearly failed.

The thing is, now that I am older, whic is 20 year old now and currently 21, considering we're now 2021 (happy new year guys). I felt liked I never really moved on from the past of didn't succeeded in those subjects. I always caught up myself picking up those exercise books and saying to myself that I wanted to do those exercise, which was no good afterall.

One of the reason I think I never really moved on is because my late dad used to be very proud of me being into science school and such. I can sense it. He used to say he respect the doctors and looked highly at them. (Which gives a teenage me pressure to succeed in those subjects, to which, doesn't end well like I mentioned earlier) When I got the result he was obviously really disappointed in me. It was in 2017

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Now I am currently doing my diploma in Logistics. My dad had passed away in 2019 due to chronic disease. I still catching myself picking up those exercise books and having the intention to do them. I never really good at them. I think for a fact that I used to be a daddy's girl and I disappoints him in that manners made me now to have difficulty in letting go the past. Now, I have some few options.

1) Study them
2) let go of them and just move on

Option 1: if I do that, then what? What am I supposed to do with all those knowledge? I mean, that big examination has passed long ago back in 2017.

Option 2: I don't know. If I just merely let go of them just like that, I feel like there will be a void inside of me, I don't know.

What should I do?

We got this class together last year. Everyday when the class ended early and everyone would be standing and waiting next to the door for the bells to release us. A lot of people faced the door direction, but my crush always faced the front of the class which is where I was. I think it was because he got to talk to his friend, but the thing that got me wonder is how he always walked pretty close behind me when we leave class.

I thought it was a coincidence at first, but then it kept happening and I think it happened more than 5 times. Like a lot of time when I stood up and started walking to the door, he would be doing the same thing, and some how always made it to the door the same time as me, even though my spot was further away from the door than his. Then he always stopped before me and let me pass him. After I have passed him, he would walk really close behind me. I’m not sure if this was just him trying to be a gentleman for letting girls go first. But the only weird thing is he only seemed to walk close behind me.