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So I have an issue...
2 guys in my life have already ended things with me based on the issue of "maturity"
My ex-boyfriend (23) and a guy I dated briefly afterward (23).

-My ex-boyfriend and I were on and off for a while b/c of his commitment issues + he was unsure of me. He would end things and come back to me multiple times because "there were things he liked about me and things he didn't like" One of the things he didn't like was that I was younger, still in school, and didn't have as much life experience
-The guy I dated briefly went out with me for 4 dates. Later on, he confessed he didn't see us dating because "maturity-wise him and I were at different spots" He even gave an example of immaturity based on my part with the first time we kissed which was was "awkward and weird"

I am a 21-year old female that works two jobs, is in college full time, is saving up for an apartment for the end of the year, and I already have my career goals in mind.
I didn't date in high school because I wanted to focus on school and I also didn't even think guys liked me + I had very low self-esteem for dating
I just started seriously dating around 2 years ago... do you think because I dated later on in life that guys that are older think I'm immature? Do I just need more experience with dating?

I feel like for a 21-year-old female, I know myself pretty well. I'm loyal, sweet, caring. supportive, open-minded, creative, have hobbies and am social
However, I can also be emotional, sensitive, shy, passive-aggressive, needy, and sometimes lazy.

Is there something wrong with me or am I just picking wrong guys? Or maybe it's both...

Witnessing the transition covid 19 pandemic, as far as all of the day to day adjustments regarding close and distant contact with Friends family S O and strangers; I feel like I get a small glimpse into How it would feel too love love and have sex ore A I D S and after. (We can include With A I D S syphilis Ghonorrea Chlamydia Herpes simplex and many other std goodies, but A I D S was most prevalent as national concern )

Sex, once being something people entered into into a lot more freely - with concerns but disease maybe not Being high on the list. Suddenly became something rather disconcerting: Should we , shouldn’t we, Wait period, can I trust you physiologically etc. Completely different world and approach to everyone in it in one lifetime. I don’t think everyone Experiences enormous shifts like that. War is smother of course. As well as liberation movements. For a while people were wirrued about touching anything and anyone near them bc there was so Much mystery surrounding everything. Eventually the myths were gradually struck down, people calmed down and Releasing their vigilant mental grip against A I D S now having a better idea what they were dealing with. You can’t get it from spot or washing hands it touching un lacerated skin. Etc

Well we are in a similar situation - romantically- with covid 19 though its more Challenging in ways bc we have to deal with air droplets skin context and saliva exchange. ~~~ Forget about sex!!~~try making out without any of those ingredients 😎

Now maybe for very young people IF they grow up having to test blood before scoring first base, it will seem normal. But for people who grew up walking into a bar and leaving With a hook up, kissing a date a sweet good night as an indication you are happy with the way things are progressing and would like to continue getting acquainted—This huge potential shift in what “ cautious” means will be very disorienting
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