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I've always been one to advocate for body positivity, but am I really being a hypocrite for wanting a well endowed man?

So let me give a quick background on this subject.

My ex-boyfriend of 6 months was genuinely one of the best men I've ever known. He had a smile that could stop you right in your tracks. A face legit sculpted by the gods. A personality to die for. He is an incredible guy. Not to sound pretentious. Like as if I'm rubbing him In y'alls face. I'm just trying to help u visualize for the sake of my question. His body was perfection. I've never been picky when it came to looking for a guy. As long as we click and get along well that's all that matters.

I never saw a problem with his size till after we broke up. I was just thinking of all the good times we had, while simultaneously eating my feelings away, when I realized something. I never truly got off while we were together. I always came but on my own accord. Dont get me wrong he was a very tinder lover. Alwayse took my needs into consideration. Always pushed me to try new things in, and out, of bed. But his dick never ACTUALLY satisfied me. Granted he was amazing at everything else, just not when it came to using his dick. He was about 5' inches when hard.

So is that me judging him, or simply having a preference. If the relationship hadn't ended I dont think I ever would have said anything. But now that it's over I feel like it's ok to talk about.

Were still best friends. Were still attached at the hip. Were still there for eachother. But I dont feel right keeping it to myself.

Please reframe from leaving hate on this question. Its something that I've wondered about for a while now, and am simply wanting an answer.

Thanks in advance😊

Before things got really bad I though she was the one. Everything was awesome but she would talk about how she had all these guys in her inbox. Now this was before it got serious. So I took that as a red flag. But I video chatted a friend that I knew before me and her started talking but I wasn't talking anything outta pocket either. But after that everthing starting going down hill. We would always fight about who you texting who was that on the phone why you always in your phone why does your phone have a lock on it. But it was her who was doing the dirty cause I found she was liking commenting on guys posts pics and in there dm. We split one time for two weeks and messed around with a guy in the house we stay at. But I'm no angel either after your break up I didn't take it well because I was like what I do when I though we was good and working shh out. But her feelings was never there we had great times but I don't think she even cared if she would do all that. But after the break up I would call soooooo much it was kinda crazy. She blocked me and everything. I posted f#\k up stuff talking about her and tagging her in it. Called her out her name talk shhh to her family about her. Her family hates me now but before they said I'm a good guy n they loved me up until that point. I called her today I want to try and make amends and all she could say is you always F*&k Everything up and hung up the phone. But before all this happened she told me I don't wanna be with you or anyone right now. I just wanna focus on me and have fun. But you never know what the future holds. Do you think she is completely over and I never will have a chance again ever. Even after all the shitty things I did after. No chance right!