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tl;dr- considering keeping in contact with an ex im still in love with. broke up last December, talked once every month since then.

I broke up with my ex a few days before Christmas last year. Basically I'm still crazy about him but I had reasons to end the relationship (he was a good partner, he did everything to try and make it work- it's my seriously ugly personal issues). Since we broke up I've just been obsessing about it but I never showed. He sent a long message on new year's day greeting me and telling me he still loves me. I replied and that convo didn't last long. About last week of January, he called me and we talked for a while. After that call, he sent a lot of messages asking if we could still make it work. I love him a lot but I was so sure that getting back together isn't the right thing to do so I stuck with my decision. I blocked him on Facebook after that because it became harder for me to stop thinking about him. I'd visit his profile a lot. Just two days ago he sent messages on Instagram but he unsent them. Then last night he called and we talked for a few hours. It was a really nice talk and I felt instantly better. It included saying I could call him anytime I need someone to talk to. He said he's still waiting and hoping for something between us. He understands why I ended things with him which I didn't expect because he really didn't do anything for me to act that way.

Anywaynot a day goes by that I don't think about him and I miss him a lot so I've thought about considering calling him every now and then. Would that be unhealthy? I didn't say anything to him about getting back together. We just agreed that we can call each other anytime we want, and I do want to. I just dont know what's right or wrong about this anymore.

So I have a conventionally pretty face with curly hair and im 23. Problem is I've never taken it seriously. Im not in best shape for past 12yrs and I do have acne my hair is also not were I want it to be length wise. I know I've got a pretty face because when I do wear makeup that's what strangers or family/friends say, I also never looked in mirror and considered myself ugly since my features are very symmetrical and dimples.

Should I use quarantine to up my game and use all my cards in life finally? Its the same as being born rich what matters if you upkeep it. Those of you with decent genetics, do you capitalise of it by working on your body? Or let it hide behind fat?

honestly on a good day i would probably give myself a 5.5. im pretty happy with how i look

its out of 7 because gag won't let me have more than 7 polls. 1 is ugliest human being ever and 7 is model. 4 is average joe