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Ella is 18 years old. She recently graduated high school and quit her fast food restaurant Jon after two of her females coworkers almost choked her to death and stumped her head on the ground. Ella wanted to find another way to make money and felt quite sad. She started panhandling and made an average amount of 90 dollars every 5 hours on the street. She also got two date offers from old men. Ella was happy but she knew her parents wouldn't be once they found out. Ella eventually met Dustin, a 19 year old homeless teenager with no friends, no family and he was quite scared and hurt himself. He told her the story of him shitting his pants and crying about it and being beaten for stealing a sandwich. He heard her story at the restaurant and told her that he had his head banged against a wall until he bled and passed out as a child. Ella feels bad for Dustin, especially seeing him tear up and get emotional. Ella likes Dustin's quiet humble nature but she feels like she shouldn't. Ella starts giving Dustin some of her money to him and they talk every once in a while. They even kissed and made out in her bedroom.

I’m sick of my boyfriend acting like he doesn’t know what to do or how to be in a relationship! I’m 30, he’s 40, and I have always dated older guys because I prefer an extremely traditional relationship. I function better and am a better person when I’m the follower in this male female relationship. Aka I do NOT want to be the dominant one!!! At all.
Plus I like relying on the knowledge and older person provides in a relationship. I like to be the cleaning/cooking type, and want him to be the typical strong man/take out the trash only type. But he never takes the initiative to start anything as far as giving me a kiss, holding my hand, etc. I got home the other day after a 10 hour day, and we did an awkward “dance” just trying to walk through a hallway when he was deciding whether to kiss me or not. I finally just hopped up and kissed him (a peck as usual, the only kinds of kisses we ever have) just to end the awkwardness. We’ve lived together for 3 years! And we’re friends/dating for 5 years before that, it’s not like we don’t know each other and it’s not a “new” relationship. Why is this still so awkward? We also are only intimate about once every month on average because it’s just so uncomfortable and awkward. The rare times he tries to initiate sex it’s always at the wrong time or extremely awkward and uncomfortable feeling so we only do it when I initiate it, which as a woman isn’t too often! I’ve been married before, and been in “live together” relationships before and have never had this issue with anyone I’ve dated. My previous relationships consisted of kissing/sex/ect. many times a week but usually more. Shouldn’t he just kiss me when he wants to and not have to think it over? why is he so awkward and uncomfortable in life in general? And how do I get him to “step up as a man” without saying those mean words? We’re headed towards marriage and I feel like I should break up with him because I just can’t live like this!!! :-(. Fml...