I let him touch me?

Anonymous
I'm 24 years old...
I went for my first date with a guy I met online.
He comes and picks me up at my house.
he buys food at the drive-thru and we ate in the car.
he feeds me and all
I don't mind that.
but it escalates quickly after we finished our food he started to kiss me and touch my breast.
that worst part I let him do it but inside my head, I won't stop and go back home.
he tried to touch my downstairs but I stopped him.
he asks me to touch his dick, I don't want to touch.
after the date, he sends me home.
I feel really bad for giving my first kiss to that guy.
I went for the second date in the hope he will understand me that I'm not looking for hook up.
but he did the same thing and this time he persuades me to suck his dick... and I did because I don't want to lose him since I like him.
I realise that he is taking advantage of me and I'm letting doing it.
I feel stupid and look like a slut for doing whatever he asked.
how do I stop this... I feel sick thinking of myself.
I'm still virgin and I want to give my virginity to my husband
I like that guy he is all different when we text but he behaves differently when we met.
in the car he so touchy but outside he doesn't even walk beside me.

is there any ray of hope he likes me back? or he is just using me...
I'm sorry English is my third language.
I let him touch me?
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