Search Results: do i miss being with someone

So there’s this gal I’ve known for like 2, almost 3 years,
and I love her to death, we’re like best of friends and get along really well,
but the thing is I love her like romantically and wanna be more than jus friends,
she says that she only likes me as friend and has no feelings for me and that she’s only attracted to black guys,
and for like a year I’ve just accepted it and don’t think about it, but lately it jus makes me really sad at the end of every day,
whenever we say bye and go home I wanna like hug and kiss her n stuff n like take her home with me, but she just says “bye mate”
so nonchalantly and like she doesn’t really care about me at all and it just kinda makes me sad all the time knowing how much I love her and that she only likes me as a friend,
it makes me feel like somethings wrong with me like I’m really unnatractive or not good enough,
i don’t wanna jus be her friend I wanna be more,
I’m kind of thinking of ditching and leaving her so that I can eventually forget about her and stop being sad all the time ,
i know I will miss her a lot and sabotage a great friendship but I think it will be worth it to stop feeling sad all the time, but not sure,
and don’t say “jus stop feeling sad”
cos I’ve tried that and I jus can’t help myself... everyday I go home and think about how I’m not attractive and not worthy enough for her to like me 😥😥😥😓😥