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On one hand he tells me about his life, dreams, saying he wants to take me there to his dream places, telling me he wants to cook with me teaching me how to make that and that, I spend the night don't have sex immediately but talk, joke, sometimes we been out together, talking about what we are, saying he would get jealous if I was with someone , we can talk on the phone long and he says he misses me and he knows I am into him.

On the other hand when he talks about what we are he sounds confused and is like we are seeing each other but no label and we both single. We don't have daily communication and lately I feel it is me initiating more, last night I thought we had plans to meet up but he misunderstood and thought I was at a party and called me 8 am saying he would come when I told him I was home he was just like ok goodnight call you later and he never did and I even texted.

I just had enough. I am tired of thinking about him every damnn minute of the day, getting butterflies when meeting him and falling in love with him if he is not there. So waiting all night (not waiting per se but couldn't sleep thinking about him, and I have a life please big family, friends, school, my hobby that is dance etc) until 5 am I had it and texted him and said something:

I am falling for you, I like you you too much. I can't keep it casual while I am getting feelings. I know you said you want to keep it casual, so I think we should stop seeing each other while we are still good and until you figure out what you want.

Did I make a mistake, I haven't checked my phone since because I am panicking not knowing if I made a mistake, I still want to see him but I can't have a friends with benefits situation while in love with him, also I hope I didn't hurt his feelings, I don't know if he will just say ok cool really cold, be mad and say I am too much and a coward for texting, or call and says these things or want to make it serious to not loose me. Do you think I made a mistake?

I met a guy when i was travelling on 2015. He was the first guy that i've ever slept with. We hooked up for two days, and then went our separate ways.

Last month i went to visit him in German (after several failed relationship with another guy - no sex involved), I don't know - maybe i just missed that sex experience with him. And we spent a week together, at my last day I said I like him (and he did not say anything).

When I got back to my country, i texted him "i miss you" and he will reply "i miss you too". And until now we did some sext.

I want to visit him again, but i am afraid that i will fall for him deeper - whereas he might just see me as friends with benefits, and does not see me as potential lover or anything.

Note :
- usually it is me that initiate the texting

- during my time at German, we only stayed at hotel - have sex, watch netflix. One time we did go out to nearby park, and he introduced me to his bestfriend

- there was several times that he left me at the hotel - and he went to party with his friends

- yesterday i found out that he many times comment on this one girl facebook/instagram since 2015 - a month after our first encounter - but never did that on mine. Seems he like this girl