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So, some context. My boyfriend and I were together for almost 3 years. We moved to another state together, and we had been living together for the last year. There were a lot of things coming in between our relationship, like how we were living with my mom (awk, I know, things were complicated and we couldn't afford to live on our own yet), we didn't have the same days off so we hardly saw each other, etc. It got to the point where he only wanted me around for sex in exchange for him doing things for me like cooking dinner or driving me to work which was down the street. It didn't feel like we were a couple anymore.

About a month ago, my coworker was worried about my well-being and expressed how he always thought I was pretty and how he wanted the best for me, and it was nice hearing that from somebody at the time. I ended up inviting him over to the house while my boyfriend was at work and we did sexual things. My boyfriend ended up finding out what happened after looking through my phone and I was trying to explain why I felt the need to do that, but he wasn't believing me. I broke his trust. I owned up to what I did but he was too hurt and has been hurting ever since and it kills me. I've started therapy and got an STD test which came back negative, and I'm working on myself to become a better person, but I feel like it's too late since he already closed his heart off to me.

TLDR: I cheated with my boyfriend of 3 years and he doesn't trust me and doesn't want to take me back. I'm having trouble moving on because he was my everything.

What should I do? Should I keep trying to fix our relationship? How can I prove to him that I've changed and I won't ever do what I did to him again after going through the pain of losing him? How can I get him to trust me again? If you've been cheated on, did you work things out with your partner? I still feel like a shitty human being, but I'm trying to fix what I did wrong.. any help or advice would be appreciated. :(

My ex boyfriend of 13 months still wants to see me and has me sleeping over at his house and was begging me to come back and saying he misses me tons and that he loves me and that I’m beautiful. We had broken up back in June cuz he felt like I didn’t appreciate him - but he knows I do care for him tons cuz I always show him, and a day later he was with another woman making out with her and he goes on dates with her on the weekends...

he was telling me that this woman can be very hurtful and mean and she has an angry temper... she has also publically humiliated him and said lies that weren’t true as well... there are also trust issues between them. He also doesn’t feel comfy to tell her his deep dark secrets (that he was in jail before) that I know. This woman also says stuff to make him look like a bad guy and that he apparently said rotten things about me which weren’t true... she’s also very public while he is very private.

He tells me he doesn’t love this woman only cares for her and that it’s me that he has more history with and that I have qualities/ character traits that she doesn’t have : kindness, caring, patience, honest, loyal, etc... he also says it’s me that he wants a future with but he’s torn cuz of past misunderstandings that we had- his mom and my mom getting involved, etc...

we hugged all nite in bed and he muttered under his breAth in his sleep that he loves me more than I know and he had his arms around me all nite long and kissed my neck in his sleep also... he also got me a meaning full birthday gift which means something to me cuz it’s a 🧜🏻‍♀️ mermaid and he knows that’s my fave Disney film. He also hugs me very tightly and always helps me out.. he begs me to come over and to spend time together as well...

is this other woman a rebound? Does he want me back you think and is he regretting the break that we took?

ps this woman is the total opposite of me- an angry bitch and a goth..., I’m the sweet sensitive girly type

I consider myself as not judgmental at all. I mean, I still have some weak moments but overall I try not to judge people because no matter how they look, how they act, what they've done, you don't know what is in their mind and what burden they are carrying. Also you never know what life would offer you and when you'are going to be in a similar situation. You just never know.
I am sharing all of this because I a lot of people around me are so judgmental. I have a few friends that are like me but the rest of them judge. I don't say they are bad people, not at all but sometimes it bothers me when they comment on someone's look or behavior. It feels just like a negative energy to me. And I almost always reply smth like: "So, why do you care?", "I think there's nothing wrong with that person", or even the opposite " I like that dress and I don't think it's ugly like you do." Although I have no energy anymore to response to commnets like this especially if my boyfriend or my mother says it.. or explain why it is not OK to be judgy. It is draining and I think it doesn't help at all. I am also wondering what is the benefit of it? To feel better? I don't think judging people makes you feel better.