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I'm in love, no need to sugar coat it. It's unrequited (to the best of my knowledge) and it's so hard. It's not the first time this has happened.. I liked a guy for five years that I didn't know well. We were close as kids but I liked the idea of him rather than truly him because I didn't truly know him as we grew older and apart. I moved on, and it took confirmation of nothing ever happening, but it did eventually pass. I now like this other guy and at the beginning I was so aware of everything so I decided to approach every step of this as prayerfully and as honestly as possible. I want to Glorify God with everything I do, and although marriage and that guy seem like a shiny jewel, it's nothing compared to the love I have for God. That doesn't make this painless though. He's in my Bible study group, I see him at church, I serve in kids programs alongside him, and any time I'm hanging with my friend group, he's there. I can't ignore him. I don't want to either, because I know that God is in charge and that he will resolve my feelings and my circumstances. I know that we go through trials in life that grow our faith, and I know I must choose one or the other, but I guess due to a lot of circumstances (which I don't have time or space to get into), right now is just a very difficult and pressing time for me in life. I like him for the right reasons, but I feel so heartbroken and heavy around him. And as I mentioned before, that's very often. I'm considering leaving my group, which would be so hard because it's like family to me, but I don't know what trial would bring God more glory. Leaving and trusting him through the pain in that, or staying and continuing to feel heartbroken and unable to say/do anything. I know that God is ultimately good and I'm so excited to see His plans for me, but right now I feel like I have to make an active choice in either staying or leaving for another group even if both choices are equally difficult for different reasons. Any advice?

I’ve been on and off the dating apps for years (gave up cold turkey 3 months ago)

I usually expect the guy to make the first move, when I have tried in the past on the apps it didn’t work out well

I usually also don’t approach guys in person

I try not to be overly eager in replying to texts, if they take hours to reply I will too

I keep on holding out for my ideal guy, the only guys that approach me are undesirable

I want to find the right guy so bad but really don’t want to settle, I’m going to be 27 this year and the situation is very hopeless