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So there is a girl who is a bit short (around 4.6 ft) but she is very intelligent, confident, smart but is very strict. Strict in the sense she will not tolerate any nonsense from anyone.
She gets angry very quickly.
Also she is an introvert, so she avoids speaking much especially guys but once she bonds then she is the most talkative person.
She is very simple. But she is cute.

I’m in my mid twenties and never been in a long term relationship. The longest I saw someone was for a few months and he was not someone I found physically attractive. I’ve only ever met guys through dating apps and have to rely on them because I don’t know how else to meet people. I’ve been on and off the dating apps for years. I have been off them for maybe 3 months and don’t plan to go back on. I just don’t get why I’m so unlucky in love, most people I know are able to get dates and jump into relationships. I’ve clearly learned to be alone but I think I know my potential, I’m not unrealistic. I know I’m not a ten but think I should be able to attract a decent guy that checks off a few boxes. I’ve only ever attracted men I don’t find good looking. If they’re good looking they’re jerks or if they’re cute/nice they end up being too short. I’ve learned to accept I will end up alone, I just think it’s really uncalled for and unfair. All I ever wanted was to find someone decent, they say love finds you well it better because I am going to stop looking.

Long story
Female, 24. My ex and I broke up in May 2020, and we were no contact. I met a guy that I fell for hard, online, 6 months after my break up (Nov. 2020, we spent the whole month together), he is a chef that fell out of work due to COVID and decided to buy an RV to travel and discover a new life, with a goal of moving towards the west coast. We were instant friends, and the sex... was absolutely incredible. He did things to me I don't think will ever happen again. We started dreaming together of trying to make changes in our grueling society and try to bring some positivity. I decided to drop everything and joined him in January (he left in early December to start his trip).
Well... turns out he has a drug problem. At first I thought it was recreational, and I was fine with it, but very quickly it was clear he was a fiend. After a week from hell, I ditched him and got back in contact with my ex. I could have gone back to my family, but for some reason I called my ex (turns out the same day he had called his ex because he was lonely, and he chose me over her) and we decided to go on a week vacation to his summer house to see where we were at.
I feel better with the other guy, on many different levels, but my ex offers stability and if we don't work out I can move on and build my life. The other guy is working on becoming sober and is showing me proof, and when I left him, he had a break down and confessed he was falling in love with me, well, that he loved me. I miss him but I am scared to try again. I can set myself up with a little emergency money and bail to my family if I needed, but that's a hard road. If there hadn't been a drug problem, I would still be with the other guy. He pushed my boundaries and excited new ways to live life in me that felt right. It's easy with my ex, but almost bland, and he has a dog (I hate dogs, nice to them, but hate them). Who should I be with, if either?