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My parents sanctioned me because they thought I was suicidal (the psych evaluation showed that I wasn't). But since I got out I can't go a week without contemplating suicide or a month without resorting to some form of self harm to alieve the mental pain. I have flashbacks constantly and the pain is unbearable. The worst part of it is that my parents have the nerve to lie and say that it broke their hearts to do it. If it did, then they shouldn't have done it in the first place; it's that simple. I hope that they die a slow and painful death. What many have said is that even killing myself wouldn't be enough to make them regret it. However, when I was sanctioned I was an underachiving D student but since then (when I was 16) I pulled my grades up to get into a reputable university. I graduated the University with high honors in a STEM field and I was recently accepted into a Tier 1 PhD program in that field, but now the desire to end my life now to make a point is stronger than ever because they would be forced to face the fact that because they weren't willing to risk the life of the underachieving version of their son they now lost the overachieving version. And I think that if other parents who fear that their teens may be suicidal hear about this it will fill their hearts with fear and they will think twice before committing their son or daughter. Does anyone else feel this way?

G@G, before you remove this question and direct me to the suicide hotline, know that I said that I WANT to do these things, NOT that I plan on actually DOING them, so don't waste your time.

Whenever a guy has contact to any girl, he's constantly walking on eggshells. In our society, every girl holds the power of life and death over any guy she ever crosses paths with- if she chooses, she can say and do anything to him, and he'll be completely powerless to stop her or do anything about it except lie down and take it. All a guy has to do is glance in the general direction of a girl in passing, without even realising she's there, and she can call the police and have him arrested by accusing him of stalking her and of sexually harassing her. If a girl decides she wants a guy, she can use blackmail to force him into becoming her slave, and dictate that he does anything and everything she demands of him. Even if it's exposed, she'll never face any charges, and the guy involved will be socially outcast and scorned for the rest of his life.

If she decides she wants money, blackmail and exortion can get her everything and anything. And if she decides she wants a relationship, she can change her mind at any point and renege on that decision with complete and total freedom, without any negative repercussions and with purely positive consequences regardless of her decision, and there'll be nothing that the guy she was in a relationship with can do about it. She can produce, buy and sell children like commodities, and mistreat them in any way she wants, but no guy will ever win a custody battle against a girl no matter how shambolic her parenting skills are; no guy is worth anything to a girl, and no guy is allowed to be worth anything in the eyes of a child.

So yes, I am afraid of girls. I'm deeply afraid of girls- I've spent my entire life being shown how utterly and completely powerless I am, and how every girl who crosses my path holds the power in the eyes of the law to destroy each and every element of my life for nothing more than her sadistic pleasure and amusement. Can any guy afford not to fear girls, given the absolute power they wield?