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So I’ve been talking to this guy for the past month. We hang out every single day, spend the night at each other’s places sometimes, we’ve hooked up like 5 times.

Yesterday morning he called me and said he wanted to spend the day together, so we had a breakfast date, jammed in his car, went back to his place, and had some BOMB sex. I had to go to work at 2:30 but he reminded me that we were hanging out at 8 and kissed me goodbye.

Fast forward to 8. I get there, handle of Bacardi, ready to drink for the first time in ages. Long story short, got a little too drunk, to the point where he didn’t think I could drive— I honestly could’ve. I had to be home by 1 because curfew. He made his best friend drive my car and follow me and him in his car to my house.

I’m not sure how this conversation started but during the car ride he told me he didn’t care if I died, and just that he didn’t want me to get pulled over. First of all, what the fuck? I asked him if he meant that, and he said said it again. “I don’t care if you die, I don’t care if anyone dies.” Like who fucking says that? To be fair he did tell me he was feeling really depressed, I asked him what I could do to help him, he said to wait a day and he’ll be fine.

Anyways, after asking him again like what the fuck dude, he said “no, I’d care if you died.” He then proceeded to tell me he has “a lot of love for me.” I feel like he was just telling me things I wanted to hear.

One more thing. We were discussing tinder earlier in the day, and he said he wasn’t about that Tinder life, and I agreed, which is true for me, I don’t have the app. When he let me pick the song on the ride home, he handed me his phone, and Tinder was one of the recommended apps from the drop down list. Also he was talking to some girl named Natalie on there?

Am I overthinking this? Am I overreacting?
To be honest I’m still a little drunk and just overall confused. I’m sure we’ll hang out tonight, but I’m tired of these mixed signals.

I am in a long distance relationship for almost a year now. We have our usual minor bumps in the road, nothing too big.
Due to working schedule we haven't seen each other for couple of months now. But managed this weekend. Yay.

For whole my life i'm struggling with my selfconfidence and body image (i'm bigger) and I really work on being mentally and physically healthy. But sometimes my mind plays tricks on me...

So, I got this weird feeling yesterday. That something is wrong. I can't shake it off. Maybe are my hormones acting up. Maybe its my low confidence. Maybe its him?

Facts:
- for last six months he is on this mission to lose any excess body fat he might have.
- he didn't want to take off my top during sex (but on other occassion we had sex completely naked)
- he likes of other man are interested in me
- i found some weird note in his flat about how awesome was to get drunk with him (dont know from whom and how old this is).
- he is still very affecionate to me
- he never says I love you (I do)
- we just booked vacations together
- he is still (since day one) very gentelman like towards me.
- everytime he has an option to see me... he travels 6 hours to do so.
- when i'm visiting he always buys my favorite food.

My intuition is more or less ruined since previous relationship when my ex really manipulated with me, so i am not able to tell what is this. Am I just acting up or there is something...