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I met my boyfriend at a language exchange social in August 2019 and we had a long, intense, online romance for about a month before I let him meet with me again. Once we started meeting in October, the chemistry was so strong that we were officially girlfriend/boyfriend by the end of the month. I had never had a boyfriend before this-- I am extremely picky and believe that the person I am dating should be a person I could see myself marrying. This makes it extremely complicated especially in the beginning of a relationship, when you cannot predict the future and it comes to mind vs. heart and reason vs. passion. I know one cannot predict the future, but I want there to be at least a vision of the future on the horizon.

This is when I get doubts. He will say things like "we will have two weddings, one here and one in Saudi" but if I joke about it he is serious and becomes distant. He met my family and close friends, he tells me that he talks to his close friends about me (I facetimed one of his best friends back home, and one time he said his mom told him to said hi to me). I truly believe he loves me with all his heart. But he's practical, and I'm afraid that while he does love me, he will return to Saudi and break up with me because of our cultural differences.

At moments it seems we are polar opposites. Even our language reads in opposite directions-- left to right and right to left. I feel like we are the positive and negative space in artwork, severely juxtaposing each other but can only exist from this juxtaposition.

I feel like no one understands this situation. Please give me advice and a different perspective—am I naive to think this relationship could work?

I'm an exotic lover. I love traits in a partner that I will never be able to have or experience. Opposites do it for me. I don't know, I feel like the opposite side of the puzzle fills the empty spaces. Although people more similar are much easier to understand, it's the differences that keep me coming back because I feel complete and like my flaws are complemented by his successes and vice versa.

Example #1: Most people know this about me. I'm latina and I have a really big thing for northern European men. The culture, the languages, the appearance. I grew up speaking Spanish but put me around a blonde guy who is speaking German and you'll see a different side of me. Lol
Example #2: I am not creative AT ALL. I'm a logical thinker and analyzer, so I'm a lover of math and science. Try to get me to paint or play an instrument and I wouldn't know where to start. But people who are more talented in the arts and music draw my attention. I find it cool because it's something I'll never understand. I'm passionate, but I express it in other ways, not through creativity. (This similarity tends to be a good one for me when dating.)

So which one are you? And what do you think of it? Do values come into play, maybe ethics? Or is it just your preference and what's good for you? Or maybe what you prefer on this isn't the best for you?
Let's hear it!