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To be frank, I'm ugly. Always have been ugly and probably always will be ugly and I don't think anything will ever change that but here's the thing - I honestly don't care anymore. Sure it use to bother me seeing all my other guy friends have girls approach them (and my brother) and zero even look at me but it doesn't anymore, it's almost if I've accepted this "ugliness" and just have decided that this is what I am and nothing can change that. I've also decided to stop lying to myself and calling myself " beautiful" and "cute" because while that helps you feel better about your outward appearance, it only lasts for about 5 minutes and I've found out it makes me feel worse knowing that I only feel good about myself because I've consistently told myself the same lie all day.

So like I've stated in the title. does the fact that I consider myself ugly but don't really care show that I'm unconfident? Is it mean my self - esteem is low? Please don't give me no generic coping answers stating "No one is ugly" or "Everyone is beautiful" because this is just a lie. Being physically ugly has nothing to do about how you "think" you look, thinking you're a millionaire doesn't make you one does it? It's all genetic, beautiful people have good looking parents and ugly people have ugly looking parents this is just a part of life. But anyway, is this a sign of unconfidence and if so do I really need to acknowledge it and attempt to fix it again?