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It's a long story so I'll try to make it quick.
I had a crush on this girl the days of my college but never thought of talking to her because I was shy and she looked so beautiful so I was kind of intimidated by her, days go on and I kept noticing she was kinda having a crush on me too, looking at me with the corner of her eyes, trying to be closer to where I was in the yard, the reaction of her friends whenever I was close to them etc.. you know it's easy to tell when a girl is interested lol. The thing is even knowing the crush was mutual I never had the courage to talk to her, every day going to college I was telling myself I have to take the chance and talk to her but once I see her beautiful face I just feel like my heart is going to go out of my chest and I just can't move xD. She knew and tried to get away from her friends and be alone so maybe if she was alone it would be easier for me to go and ask her but nothing has changed. Vacation came and I thought it's better for me to just forget about her yet 3 months and I couldn't get her out of my mind, back to college and still the same damn thing, looking at each other for afar, kept searching for each other during the break just to gaze at each other (well she couldn't keep the eye contact since every time I catch her looking she turns her head which made my heart melt because I thought that was very VERY cute). Another vacation and still thinking about her the second I wake up till the moment before I close my eyes to sleep.

I was born in the mid 90s and a large chunk of my childhood was in the 2000s.

I will say my adult life has had a very rough start. I have never had an actual girlfriend while I watch my old friends (whom I don't talk to very much anymore) get married, get engaged, and become involved in serious relationships. I am on disability and already have a criminal record. I never been in trouble before, but one day I was arrested trying to ask a girl out again (long story). I have bad luck with women and I already have collections agencies after my ass for involuntary hospitalizations. I am unemployed, struggle with mental health issues, and still live at home. I hate being an adult. It seems like people are less and less compassionate and understanding the older I get.

Anyways, moving away from the griping...

I miss the days when cartoons were good. The cartoons they have now in my opinion suck.

Ahh... I remember shows I watched as a child, Dexter's Lab, Samurai Jack, Courage the Cowardly Dog, Drake and Josh, Spongebob (when it was actually good), Kids Next Door, Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy... Those were the days!

I remember having the Gamecube and playing Zelda Windwaker and Super Mario sunshine.

I remember when holidays were more magical, like Christmas and Halloween.

I remember being innocent, and playing with my friends.

I had the best babysitter and she was so much fun.

I remember when the latest tech was cool and all, but did not completely engulf our lives either.

Although my childhood especially started going to hell during my adolescence, there are certain things i do miss.