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Don’t Wake Me Up


The impending doom & gloom that consumes me is a mixture of my sorrows, guilt, & fears

Validated mostly by the world around me, the eyes that burn so much

as to leave visible sears if

only they could read my mind & turn torn

scorched pages

The semblance of soul & humanity that ticks away to my bereave

is a facet of life I wear on my sleeve

Though it is useless to wallow & a harsh pill to swallow

my solace is in the manner & form of how I grieve

When the gloom consumes me, & I see no reason to

tomorrow

I brew up a coffee & light a joint to raze my sorrow

burning bright as the consumption that characterized my anxieties

& bitter in taste as the silence I’ve come to speak to the world with

outside,

inside the comfort of my home

doing as they do in roam

Reverence is the stationary side of myself, but still I sojourn for loves

worthwhile embark,

walking in circles as many years as Moses made

to journey where safety lives

But I don’t weep for myself, my tears are no good here

No, it gets worse I fear

I hear of worse from far

& even near

So at least when I smell the roses, their gift is mine

While I have these two legs, their lift meets the sunshine

& although there is a warzone inside my soul

my war is peace to those embattled to the edge

I drink to them, the victims pulled apart from their wounds so deep

the nectar of the gods to lull me from their sorrows so steep

to blissful, personal sleep

In hopes that

that maybe one day we might coax them off their bravest ledge

treating these people as people, not cuttings from a hedge.

Two years ago I created My Anti-Bullying movement
My movement stand for those who have fallen from Cyber Bullying and bullying, We stand for their families and friends that have been affected by their deaths, We stand for those who are Have been bullied in the past, We stand for Those Who are currently being bullied, We stand together to prevent cyber bullying and bullying on Many social media's , and Schools.

I Motivational speak on Streams, i also created these shirts for my movement 2 years ago, i have given 14,000 shirts away out of 65,000 shirts!

Each Shirt has a different persons name and year of death. Their death was driven by Cyber bullying and bullying. some ended their lives and some were killed.


About Me
years ago in middle school i my self was bullied due to my weight i was called names and rumored upon, little did they know i was fighting for my life (medically) i was 42 pounds when i was 12 years old, due to my Esophagus collapsing, i couldn't eat for most of my two year stay in the hospital, and was fed through Nasogastric intubation. when i was released out of the hospital i was stable for a few months, but unfortunately returned to the hospital due to Not able to eat or swallow anything, While i was in the hospital they figured something else about me, that i had Kline felters Syndrome, XXY47 Chromosome disorder, they put me on testosterone treatments (injections) immediately. 2 years later (mind you i was born with an undescended testicle, they did tests and told me that i had testicular cancer, and that they would have to cut it out in order for the cancer not to spread, My surgery was in October of 2017 and i am now cancer free. although i also have pancreatic problems, i was born with an acute pancreas.

You should never Judge a book by its cover
You never know when someone is hurting or is in pain and you should never bully anyone, there is no winning with bullying.

Do you have any motivational Anti Bullying Idea's?