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A month ago, I broke up with my boyfriend of 4yrs over looking through his phone that led to a heated argument. I spent many nights crying and suffered insomnia. I missed him of course, terribly. Few weeks later I get a message from him askin if I needed to smoke with him. I said yes. I got ready and waited a little. He ended up coming over here. I hugged him & we were laughing n smokin then it got late & he stayed the night. I kept my side of the bed and he got close to me. I tried to stay away, but he kept pulling me close that I screamed on the inside. We kissed then one thing led to another. After that night he's been seeing me a lot but I try to keep it light. I don't know what to do there's still things that haven't been said. How can I address the elephant in the room w/o getting shut down and looked through? How can we have a better relationship?

We were sitting nexto to each other and he was really talkative and show off a bit. When i got up with cigarette in my hand he turned to me and look and ask where i'm going like it wasn't obvious. Next time i saw him 3 months later. He wanted attention. He was walkin in-out, coughing and asking where are cookies and stuff. When i got out he turned to me and we lock eyes and when i passed him he turned to see me leaving and said hi. I said it back but i think he didn't heard it so he ignored me next day. Next time saw him on college and only he noticed me off all my friends. Next time he moved few meters to see me leaving. He always looks im me when we pass each other. When i was in cantine and he was next table i notice he looks and when his friend moved he turned his body torwards me. Other time i was with friends next to his table in line and he only looked in his friend and was quiet. When we moved he become talkative and when he couldn't see me his friend was looking at me and talking to him. When he was leaving he was like scanning the room with sight (he couldn't see me). Once he was in group and i was searching for him with sight and he moved from group few steps and lock eyes with me. When i was with his friend he was passing with friend and that friend went to elevator and mycrush notice us. I had my bag in frint of me on table and he was walking to us and lurking behind beg. We started smiling and he did but his good friend who was with me told him to go to elevator cause he was late for class and he smiled and waved to us.2 days later he was going through my college to his and he could use elevator in other part of building. Few days ago i was in bar and that his good friend was next to ozr table and my crush came. He talked to friend and sit next to me and turned me back. He was light touching me and when i talked he was listening (i notice). Then he went somewhere and when he got back he sit away from me but i notice he looked in me (he sit so he was facing me).