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I'mBlack she's white.
Well my girlfriend of 1 year broke up with me mind you she was my best friend for 3 years and we got into a major fight because she was ignoring me while she was with her Female friend so I downloaded this app and pretended to be
Her ex (stupid ik) so basically she's saying she hates me and stuff so she's being two faced with me and not even sayin nun so I confront her about we break up we become friends for a month and so her parents found. A pregnancy test in her bag and when she gets home they got into a huge fight and she says I'm sorryi can't talk to you anymore and she says my parents hate me because of all this and she says her parents think I manipulated her when the first we had sex was 5 months after starting dating and it was on Valentine's day and I asked 4 times if she was sure she wanted to do this and like her parents are turning her against me and so I told her I wanna know why your dad hates me and she says don't call my dad I'll do anything for you not to call him so I do anyway and so she says omfg I hate you this this and this and so the father really does hate me but he never met me... its cause I'm black... smfh but I wrecked my car the next day (hit a deer) and she checks on mr and says I'm glad you're okay and I'm likethx and she's like ik I'm sorry and I'm like it's not your fault then I say Ig you're going back to hating me huh? And she says yes.. then she says I don't hate you I just feel it's best we don't talk I've been thinking about her a lot like... its hard losing a girl you love but it's harder losing your best friend with it...

Hey guys, I'm new here and wanted some opinions about my LDR.
I'm shy by nature, like being frank, and I'm for serious relationships. When there's a problem, I try to fix it, but often it causes more harm...

So, it all started after highschool, when I was 19 in 06/2014.

I've never really got the occasion to get in touch with girls even as friends. But then a girl came to me on facebook. We chatted a lot on internet day and night. Then around a month later, we met once (or twice lol) and one night we decided to talk about a possible relationship since we both really liked each other, and we both agreed.

We stayed quite far from each other (~1h30 by bus). She had an ex (around 4yrs older) and she's the shy girl with all guys trying to get her. The problem is that, 2 months later, in September 2014, I had to leave for uni studies abroad in France. It was already a kind of 'LDR' in my home country, but we managed to date a few times, as friends.

Then I left for France, only to be coming back 11months later. While away, there were 2 times where 2 guys wanted to date her. I tried to warn her but thought I was overjealous, and in the end I was right. We had occasional fights but then in 12/2014 we had a big discussion as she was always against my personal decisions about privacy for our relationship. This, combined with other arguments made me step out again for 4months. Then I came back to her, we got together again, and soon I was back in my home country. We dated again, and kissed for the first times. 3months later I left again to come back in 2yrs. After a month (now), our LDR got bad again due to arguments and I stopped talking to her again. .

We still love each other. I love her bc she's the rare kind of good, kind, caring, loyal girl. She loves me too for that. But I'm afraid losing my time due to endless arguments, our LDR fell into an endless hole, and trying to get out just seem endless and hopeless.