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We are not official, but kind of are. I'm her first! She even liked me first. We are long distancing right now.

Known 8+ months in person, been 'together', 1 month in person, then 3 long distance. The first time I left she cried at the airport... First time we were separated we emailed nearly every day. (She hates talking on the phone, she gets anxiety). She hates long distance communication, too. Doesn't even have a FB account (I love that!). She's introvert and super shy. She says she feels pressure/energy drain to keep in touch long distance. (To anyone)

This is the 2nd time I haven't heard her in a while. This time... tomorrow will be the 10th day in a row... She hates long distance communication, she RARELY even keep in touch with her best friends. She is not much of a long distance talker. I know she isn't making this up, cuz when we were just friends, she told this to me. She even warned me to not expect her to be amazing at 'keeping in touch" when we go long distance. (She's weird! I love it!) So she gets a little extra 'leeway'. b-but... It only takes seconds to email "Just saying hi".

About 2 weeks into our long distance, she realizes something I did in the past hurt her a lot. She had to let it sink in. Around this time I think she started communicating less. Only about a month later, she confessed to me that something I did a long time ago hurt her big time. She blames herself for her pain, too.

I asked for forgiveness and she said "of course!", she said 'nothing's changed". This confession happened 1month ago. Last time we spoke it seemed good. She said she was gonna send me a surprise in the mail. She sent me an "I miss you" Emoticon while saying goodbye in the chat.

Are there any other girls like her? Is it understandable for me to consider ending it?(This hurts) Would you be hurt, too? What's happening? She is SUPER shy IRL, she isn't a flirter at all. In fact, she's a 'good girl". She is super beautiful, too, so guys would probably try.