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sometimes im a bit unsure if im single by choice or not so i guess i need a second opinion.

So from the age 18 to 20 i "dated" this stoner dude (i had REALLY low selfeestem and he was the first guy that activly showed interest in me, i didn't even find him attractive) for 2 months before he dump me.. I have been on 3 dates as i can remeber with guys that actually asked me out.. i think honestly its more, but i can't remeber right now.. I was "seeing" a guy for three months (we talked daily online, met three times total, kissed once). The last dating i did was 2 weeks a go when i went on two dates with a guy, for some reason i didn't find him as attractive as i did on the first date and we haven't talked since i said no to kissing him (i kissed him on the first date).

i think i have been "rejected" once were it really bothered me, i dont think i have been seriously rejected.. maybe guys were uninterssted and i catch on it when i was trying to flirt, but i dont think i guy has said "i dont want to date you" kinda thing. I dont go out much, but when i did i met guys, but they only wanted one thing...

I have guys showing interest, but necessarly guys i found attractive.. i have been on several dating apps.. it landend me one date.. i want to date, but it seems very hard... am i single my choice or not by choice? i can't decide

I recently dumped my boyfriend of 3yrs. it was long distance (UK and USA) but he paid for me to visit him and insisted I keep my money as he knew I was struggling with bills back home. he was always there 4me and got me through sum tough times. He took care of me when I was sick even paying for my dental care twice as I was in pain. He took me on European vacations etc. he always made me laugh and smile. I never loved anyone the way I loved him and sex was the best I've ever had. I'd get home after a bad day and there'd be flowers etc waiting for me. He WAS perfect. Things changed when he found out i lied about kissing some1 else while we were on a break & he then found out I wasn't actually divorced from my husband (we have been separate for a yr) before I met this man). He became jealous and got annoyed when it took me hours to reply to a text even though I was texting other people back etc. he had a lot going on and I know he was unhappy in his job (he gave up a job he loved and took one he hated to sponsor me to live there). He also hated that I kept him secret from my family for 2.5yrs and wouldn't let him be friends on fb. He got angry that I started doing webcam sex shows for money and jealous when I was going out with male friends because I flirt with them. I admit I doflirt but nothin more. We broke up for a bit and I kissed some1 else again during that break (a male friend) and we got back 2geva but he was unhappy that I still see the male friend. I got pregnant and miscarried and then left him for good as he was acting depressed and needy and clingy.
He started therapy for is issues (he has a really bad past, his mom kicked him out when he was 14, his dad died when he was 9 and he was sexually assaulted as a child). I started seein him get back 2 his good old self, the man I loved so much but he would now and then get jealous again so I left him for good. Therapy is helping him & he continues to go. We haven't spoke for a month now and I think he's with som1 else.