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Going to Disney at the end of December and plan on going to typhoon lagoon. I have stretch marks because I bloat a lot around my period. I am only 15. But I’ve had my period since I was 10. Plus there’s a collagen disorder that runs in my family. Most girls in my family have had stretch marks at a super young age. My skin is pale and stretch marks are visible. I’m self conscious. I have a high waisted bikini but they look like major granny panties and something from the 1950s and It looks outdated. The bottoms come up to about 2 inches before my boobs.
I have regular black bikini and the bottoms look small and my muffin top sticks out more. My one piece also makes me look stuffed as well and doesn’t fit well. It’s really tight. My parents won’t buy me any new swimsuits.

We are friends with benefits kinda with a little bit more and it seems like I’m chasing after him which he obviously likes but it’s annoying and he had this attitude like he doesn’t give af. Well we got into a fight and it was petty of me but things were said and he was threatening not to talk to me anymore because I was acting crazy which is all the time tbh lmfao so I said sorry I feel bad for being like this and that I’ve had the worst attitude with him because I recently just broke up with my ex so it’s like I’m acting extra crazy on purpose with him because I know he doesn’t want to stick around so I thought this was the final stray so I apologized and said I’m sorry for my behavior and I’ll leave him alone for good and just wanted to say sorry. He never answered me so I thought we were done until a day later he calls me on the phone asking me to bring my friend to hang out with him and his friend. I said no I’m busy and he said it’s okay and that he would text me later ( which he never did?) even after he said he’d stop talking to me he called me... so what gives? Should I wait for him to talk to me again cause I’m done chasing?

I am a virgin and never dated, though i'm 20. long story doesn't really matter now. Anyhow i became acquainted with Toby 23 months ago. He asked me out but at the time i thought that meant sex i didn't realize you could just date and get to know each other, so i said no. We have spent a lot of time together bc of mutual friends. We have ended up around each other a lot and shared some personal moments before things got weird. After it became awkward i figured its bc he has feelings for me, OR bc he realizes i have feelings for him and is uncomfortable. I have not been able to talk about my interest bc my feelings are stronger than i want, and i was hoping they'd die down a bit then id ask him out casually. Im pretty much in love, i don' treally care about the precise definition, i just know id feel his absence profoundly and i can't befriends bc i am self conscious about how i feel. I guess if i thought he was ok with my feelings i could befriends but i might not like it.

Anyhow bc of how i feel i reject other guys but i have not done a thing about Toby. and i realize im stuck. I did not mean to halt anything but thats happened. I don't think id feel comfortable dating knowing how i feel knowing it might bother him, bc id feel pressured to hide or id be at the mercy of how he 'might' feel. i want to be in an honest situation esp since its my first experience. So, i will either just date other people, OR tell him how i feel and see if he wants to date. I don't really care about rejection bc i think it'd be better than this. I just know once i tell him ill most likely feel silly but not bc of rejection , but bc love is awkward. I think id feel worse dating others without him even knowing, bc if he did want me hed just feel like i dont care.