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My older sister never seems to be happy for me when something good happens in my life and she gets low key jealous when people around us start complimenting me about anything from looks, career or love interests.
People have approached me to ask me why does my sister hate me so much. These people are neighbors, church members and family friends. She pretends that she is such a great sister to me in front of my brothers and our parents so they can continue to laud what a wonderful sister she is to her younger siblings.
Some of things she has done were: Ruin my babyshower by using it as a rivalry with her ex bestfriend. By the time that shower ended, my family was divided and my aunt and my cousins didn't speak to us for over 5 years. She lied to everyone including my niece at her sweet 16 saying that she didn't know where I was when all along I was waiting for the ride she promised she'd send for me. My niece balled her eyes out the entire night thinking I flacked on her.
There's so much more but it would be way too long to write down. She's toxic and brings me nothing but negativity and stress to my home. She offers no support whatsoever and it feels like she only wants to sabotage me any chance she gets. She has told me to my face that I am not her sister 3x. When I tell my parents what she does, they say that I am acting this way because of my husband and they accuse me of being boy crazy for putting him first before family. This infuriates me! She's toxic! I feel its time to cut her out of my life. Ain't no way in hell would I have let her stick around this long if she was a friend and not my sister. Am I wrong if I do? Would you so the same? I feel like if I keep her around she's gonna betray me so bad that I may flip out on her.

Not really a question, just alone I guess. Currently 18, started my first year of college, and I just want to know and have the experience of what it's like to just genuinely kiss someone that you really like and care deeply about. Maybe I am just watching too many romantic movies as such, could be. Don't know. I just have never kissed someone, not even just a peck on the lips, been in a relationship, or done anything remotely sexual with someone. I don't want to rush into doing stuff with anyone person "just to get it over with" or things like that. I am waiting for when the time comes with someone who I really care about. Don't know if I'm feeling like I'm missing out. Maybe I am just curious because I have never experienced all of that. I'm not 100% sure of my emotions right not. Any insight that someone wants to give me? Anyone can relate to me? Hopefully someone answers. Not sure how you would answer, that's up to whoever reads all of this I guess. Just felt like ranting/sharing today.

This is my first relationship but not his. So our first date was the movies, and that was pretty much it "going into public." Before, we did make plans to go meet at like a restaurant and the next day at the mall towards the end of August.

But, I was stuck in my parent's house and was waiting to move into my college dorm to make my schedule available, and go about my business.

Since, it's been a few weeks since the first date and I've driven to his house a couple of times already on his days off to go see him. I love to go see him and I'm not wasting much of my gas at all. I have bought up to go to a Halloween Terror Event going on in October and he agreed about the idea but we need to plan a date were both available to go. I haven't made any date plans as of right now to go out because I do not know how to approach this.

He does work 5 days a week cause he lifts packages stuff all the time at a company knowing he comes home tired and exhausted. He has only Sundays and Mondays off ( I have classes on Monday).

I don't know if I'm rushing about this or worrying too much not going out in public. I am a college student also so I am free on the weekends but I am busy kind of on Mon., Wed., and Fridays depending on my workload (If not I am free on Tues. and Thursdays but he works during weekdays and Saturday).
I perceived it as the norm to go out in public for dates sometimes unless that varies relationship to relationship.