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I experienced self-loathing progressively for the past 2 years of my life more than ever before. For me, it wasn't just hating how I looked, it was hating my whole character. I was in a toxic (and mentally abusive) relationship at the time where i was putting my all into someone and never getting anything back, and it drained me of everything. I slowly started getting more depressed, and started putting myself down a lot. Then with that, came a strong feeling of anxiety all the time, especially in social situations, I started to really my character, felt like I wasn't "normal" and would put myself down over it, felt like I was too awkward and nobody would like me. As things got worse in my life I started to blame myself for a lot of it, and thought I was like bad luck to the people around me, and they would be better if I wasn't there. I've tried finding people online who've gone through a similar experience to me but couldnt find any so I've come here.